27 Nov 1986.
Loves Tanning.
SMU BBM Student.
Not the average girl-next-door
A almost typical Sagittarius
For you to judge, not for me to say.
Speak
I finally graduated from school. Out of the walls of SMU, "they" once told me there were a lot more than what I see in school. No Magma, Suma or whatever, I have Karma? haha. I still find this joke little funny. I've been spending my time fb-ing, going / hanging out w others (v minimal), CNY shopping (which i still havent find something i really like/want, job hunting. The moment I hear the word JOB, churns my insides. I hate going thru so much effort, time travelling up and down so many times a week.And just finding myself going to the actual interviews like 2 times? Yes, those darn agencies. It drains your energy, money and hopes. Why can other people at the age of 25 be like directors/VPs and making good money with great careers ahead of them, while I work my ass off for a job that pays maybe 1.8k? 1 point 8 fucking k? Then why in the world should i spend the last 3 and a half years studying like shit? Is it the GPA they want that badly? Does it really affect that much of your job performance? Rejection sucks. And yes, nothing else but you suck that up too. Am I really that unemployable? I'd be too lazy to start uploading pictures in this blog from now on i think. (unless i really have the time) So i guess, its major alphabet feasting from now on. Good luck with that. haha. I can't sleep 'cause I am sulking that I can't really set up a business right now nor someone who just employ a marketing graduate. Finding a damn job is really tough.Even tougher than losing that belly of mine. When u are caught in this situation, what else should you do to motivate yourself?Cause it seems like its taking away all my enthusiasm that I need to go on with life or for the next interview. Meeting with Pam Lim gave me some insights today. I hope I get to achieve something out of it especially with an expert from home. Just many things going thru my head. Whenever I meet people these days, the first question will always be, "Hey, u working now?" OR "Hey, so when are you getting married?".If you really wanna know the truth to 2 questions above."Neither. I am unemployed and my clock is ticking away to my expiry date plus weddings/marriages scares the hell out of me."Fuck.
Labels: when u just need to blogI should be burying myself with books, notes and what nots but i Am HERE. hahaha.I battled one hell of a paper this morning. Victory or not, all depends on her (my prof) now. Tmrw's my last paper.For that matter, if all goes well with Taiwan - my last freaking exam paper in SMU.Whoots! I really hope things will go smoothly with the application.And that stupid director isn't replying my emails. Sickening!Oh yes. I got my new tuition kid as well!Her name's Regine.Pri 6 and her mum told me from P3 till now she hasn't passed any of her science exams.OMFG.And only now she gets a proper tutor for science.Suddenly, I realised Lorraine was a lot more superior after teaching Regine for 1.5 hours.Worse, she keeps texting me for i-don't-know christ sake!Awhile "hello" me, awhile "Teacher, do you have a blog?" Wtf?!?!Afterawhile i stopped replying, testing my patience. She better don't turn out to be one small yet masssive bitchy thing like Lorraine or She can kiss goodbye to her PSLE grade. Wah. Her mum must have really taught I'm some God of Science that can transform her daughter that is clueless about science since Pri 3. I've alr planned for the whole week right after tmrw. I bet you wont get to read another post till end of next week maybe? haha. To do during the holidays:- Go for TGIO by gourmet club- Go Kart in Malaysia- Meet Na, Kailing (since forever), Cher + xh, Aloy- Dye hair?- Trim eyebrows- Beach Volley - Tanning - Tuition - Save money?!?!- Wild wild wet with family - Food Trail (photography course) by SMUSAIC - Hunt for anniversary present - Complete ZJ's bdae present (part 3) :)) --- baby: u're v curious right? hur.
21st jan: Am back blogging on the train. Not watching Grey's this time cause I have complete till where I am left with waiting for the new episode. Last Sunday I had to head back school. On the way there, I felt worse than maids! They were all chattering on the train while I was making my way to campus. I mean even they are entitled off days. And me? Oh wells. Fine. Am frantically looking for a tuition kid no that I "fired" my last. I NEED $$$!! On the other hand, one thing happy about? Sat I am going to do my nails with cher & xh! Den reunion dinner on Sat and then sun too! Woot. Best? NO sch over the long weekend! Yar. Then comes make up lesson on the 31st Jan, it’s a Sat (till 7pm!) seriously. Belle coincidentally was on the same train with me yesterday. In her very slight attempt to lose weight, we walked home from the interchange. She's going back in Early Feb, oh god. That's like so soon. I barely got enough of her. This time that she is going back, I don’t even know when I will get to see her again. Belle: yeps, belated bday celebration + tanning + club + stay overs + my bday present (u kuku) before you go. Sigh. Pending tasks: Labels: crazy work load, when u just need to blog
Labels: fucking campus, updates, when u just need to blogIt is exactly a month from my last update.
Yeps. I'm so lazy to blog these days. haha.
Before i logged on i started blog hopping, as usual i Missed out quite a bit.
haha. And I Updated my 'soft' memory of things.
I missed Kailing.
Her korean trip seem soooo fun! haha.
Btw, here are some very over due pictures.
Alright so how was my holidays?
I was working at Hasbro (Lena's workplace) as a so-call intern/temp staff.
In the World of toys, it has been fun, tiring, lazy and mostly busy.
But really I think i can see myself doing such work when i graduate, that is if i can find smth like this to begin with.
Thinking of an exhchange in my last semester (next sem - yayy!) in Taiwan.
PLease pray for me that i get it!
I'm so dying to go!
Oh yes and i chopped my hair off again. haha.
SO the pictures that you see here are not exactly how i look anymore.
I spent my NYE watching the fireworks from afar at Marina Barrage area.
The best part of December 2008 is probably Zoukout 2008.
My very first Zoukout.
One of a kind Experience. :)
Will consider going there again next year. :)
Sch's hitting into week 2 now and it sucks.
Still can't assimilate.
This Afternoon i went back to TP with some TP turned SMU peeps.
Had fun reminiscing and also complaining about our current campus.
Truth to be told, i really still missed TP and still proud to be part of it till date.
Oh wells, we're almost done with the hard part of SMU now.
Keep telling myself all will be over so soon.
Frequent meetings were held to review project progress and overall statues of project with full attendance by all group members. (fucking rubbish, they have never attended ANY single meetings) Every member was assigned with specific tasks and to follow up on tasks with our best efforts. (they were only expected to write this fucking report which turned out to be 14 pages of rubbish that i edited and rewritten from page one and still can write this shit out to hand up) A project proposal was completed with a combined group effort in planning, designing of the designated system. Every member was involved in planning, designing of the proto of the system. (bloody liar) 3 good souls (names are removed to ensure privacy) were in charge of the overall implementation and ongoing project development to ensure project phase requirements are completed and utilizing of VBA. Asshole 1 and Asshole 2 were in charge of collection of data and testing of the system in user’s perspective by providing constructive feedbacks regarding any improvement to the system. (that is antoher lie, God pls punish her today - they have never ever touched the system.) Lastly, the final report was prepared by Asshole 1 and Asshole 2 while 3 good souls ensure adherence of the report’s content to the meet the report requirements.(Rubbish again, the entire report was full of this kind of rubbish that she wrote, she doesn't even know what the system really does) An update of the project progress to the client is represented by one good soul, this is to inform the current accomplishment and overall status. This is just one small chunk of words, as you can see from a para of 8 sentences only 2 were correct and truthful. This has got to be the worst report i have ever seen in my life so far, worse than those laggards back in tp, super serious! Asshole 2 got really worries after I talked some sense into him and started becoming desperate, keep offering to help us do formatting (which is like duh? when i edit i make sure the formatting is done as well) even offered to send us home from school ytd. wth. Argh. No wonder i get older. Freak tired. The other day my laptop charger got burnt and smoke started seeping out from the duct tape that i taped to the exposed wires. wth. Bought a compatible one that cost almost 50. Went Avenue Q last saturday, enjoyed every single cent i paid. The puppets are really adorable and hilarious. Labels: argh., crazy work load, fucking campus, updates, when u just need to blogIt's the type of week in school where sometimes you don't even remember what your name is.
Irresponsible groupmates are a serious no-no at such times.
Nonetheless, i have two of them in my team.
The project work is incredibly intensive and seriously i think they deserve nothing.
Today was the due date for everything.
And yesterday when i informed them about the meeting (which is so not surprising)
Asshole 1: "huh? meet for what? since when there was a meeting?"
Asshole 2: " I really have no time. i need to rush back home to do my finance ppt that is due tmrw also".
ME and the other two poor souls ended up leaving school at 12.45am.
When i got home i could barely feel my legs. I got up at 645am and i only lie on my bed to sleep at 2am.
I can't understand why these people are so selfish.
I told them off yesterday.
But i still think they are fucking irritating, i had to screw the up before i explode.
THey din do shit.
wanna See what one arsehole wrote in the report?
Here is: (check out bold words)
I hope santa brings me a new laptop. haha. I am such a Wishful kuku.
Baby says the paper mentioned that they practiced with the puppets till their fingers grew blisters.
But they were fantastic.
:))
Labels: crazy work load, when u just need to blogWhile doing a brochure for my PR project, I sourced for some children pictures
because the company that I was supposed to be PR-ing for is a children clothing company.
So I thought Benetton would be a good choice to see how they talk about their products and see some adorable pictures.
Look what i found!!
This is from google images!
From here on, pictures courtesy of United Colours of Benetton. :)
Check out her eye lashes!
So happy & Innocent!
He has got to be a model when he grows older! Handsome!
These are my top 3 favourites.
OMG. They are sooooooooo cuteeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!
Labels: friends, saying goodbyes, when u just need to blogYesterday I had one of the longest shock that I couldn't recover from lunch.
The after subject email addressed after the shock was 'Indigestion'. haha!
Nonetheless, I had fun during lunch.
We were discussing about how us and our friends grew older.
The taboo topic of sex wasn't that taboo when we were die hard fans of Sex and the City.
We have friends who would save themselves for marriage,
some who would succumb to temptations and others who just purely enjoy the "process".
I do have friends who are promiscuous that doesn't mean I love them any lesser.
Yet, i believe many who don't agree with what they are doing, they gradually drift these friends away or their friendship ends a way or another.
I don't agree at times too but I still feel it's their freedom of choice.
Who are we exactly to judge?
Of course, we have our own value system and certain things is a "Yes, we can do this" and "this is unquestionably wrong."
But when it comes to another emotional level, such boundaries get blurred.
People just change their minds, their hearts and their decisions.
I probably do judge inside me as well but I choose to value my friendship in a different way.
They may do what others think is being a bitch bullshit and bastard absurd.
But isn't it how the same friend is able to be there for you when you need her/him,
giving you the best company that he/she can, lending you an ear when you need it and just bring your friend (in your valued ways) that matters more?
To me, that indeed mattered more.
She/he can be a shitty partner but if she "delivers (or even above expectations)" perfectly in what you need in your "friend scope", isn't that sufficient to cover her/his flaws when it comes to other relationships?
Others might have differing views but I choose to firmly still believe in this.
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Today, I attended the official 2nd funeral in my life.
Why I labeled it official because in my younger days I was still oblivious about what is going on about funerals and often accompanied with my parents.
My parents often forbade me to attend such functions as well.
(of course not that I am dying to go,
but I remembered wanting to go for Na's uncle's Funeral.
But according to my parents' religious beliefs, it was a must to not attend such functions in that particular year.)
Today, for the 2nd time I wasn't accompanied by my parents.
That particular year was not this year.
I'm in the eyes of the law, no longer a minority, I'm a supposed adult.
Strengthen by my own beliefs and coated with my own emotional and cognitive abilities.
When I saw my own sister in the traditional mourning gown I cant help but to feel a deepened type of sadness that is indescribable. Although I was not close to the deceased but I have definitely seen her a couple of times, greeted her and visited her at the hospital. And now, she has left.
When I saw the look on all their faces today, I could not hold any of my tears back either.
As we walked away, we each gave her a piece of our land sending her to her new belonging.
We boarded the bus back in a heavy rain with heavy hearts.
May you rest in peace, wherever you are.
Labels: brink of death, crazy work load, when u just need to blogI don't know how it became so bad.
But it was a challenge every single day.
Mind over body.
The thesaurus is exhausted for the word weary and tired.
Everyday my scheduler is filled with to do lists and due dates.
I don't know how long more i can take on but today is the supposed day to officially take a break.
Despite tuition assignments tmrw, I am going to treat myself to smth nice.
Haven't really decided on that yet.
I am still counting down to 2030, where i can be part of a birthday celebration
and I get to see ZJ.
He has been so considerate and thoughtful lately especially with all these shit I have been going thru lately.
Thank you baby.
Hence, I didn't write here for so long.
I am still having 2 tuition kids.
Pri 6 boy is having his PSLE, he sms me saying "woots. quite easy lei."
hahaha. And yesterday when i saw him for final tuition for English
he went like "Can you don't go please. I very scared." hahaha!
He really look like jack neo's son in i'm not stupid.
Anyhows, there is still Miss little whatever, Lorraine who is always on my nerves.
And her exam is about 3-4 weeks.
That day in her science assessment a question asked "What are 2 ways to prevent bacteria from entering our body?"
And she said, "I don't know! Tell me the answer (Very typical answer from her)."
Me: "Think first can? (typical reply)
Lorraine: "Errr... Put powder?"
me: "Arr!? Burst out laughing*"
You know how kids will powder themselves up like muah chee with peanuts.
Its hilarious when i saw that innocent face saying that.
In fact, in her world, that made a lot of sense and i can see why is that so when i always see the
heavily powdered neck after shower.
Hmmm.. She must be bacteria-free in that sense then.
hahaha!
I can't wait for the test to end!
I need and want my life back.
I haven seen or talk to my close friends for like 2 months and running.
I miss them heaps.
Ok. Back to revision.
Some sort.
hehe.
Labels: brink of death, friends, those gatherings and catch ups, when u just need to blogMy body has decided to give up on me as i have given up on my presence in class today.
Second visit in a week to the School's doctor today.
I wouldn't have gone all the way there if it wasn't for the project meeting.
Yep, you guess it right.
Sore throat, fever and a nasty flu that refuse to retreat.
The scorching sun showed no mercy, one moment all bright and sunny and the next moment it was raining heavily. Triggered my fever while i was heading into the doctor's room.
I thought the previous doctor in school sucked big time.
He prescribed ineffective medication and he even once asked me to get some MLM supplements.
Not from him but he was definitely promoting it.
What kind of doctor is this ?
The current replacement doctor seems older and more experienced.
Thing is, I don't quite understand why he has to stick his hand into my top with the stethoscope
and place them rather near, you know where.
Not that I don't trust his professionalism but I don't see my family doctor doing the same thing.
He does the same thing to my back.
Feeling bit violated. But I think this time i should be able to get well since he replaced the drugs.
Next Thursday marks my final lesson of Strategy.
Can't wait. Sometimes he truly amaze me with how he can go on and on and on for 3 hours non stop and he gets all enthusiastic and dramatic when he speaks.
Communication is mostly one way, everyone else is facebooking, online shopping (Yours truly being guilty), blogging etc, just about anything but listening in class.
Every attempt to listen and follow what he says failed miserably.
It's exhausting having to constantly avoid his eye contact (there's only 12 in the class that can contain 40) and act like you are listening and interested in what he is saying when I was absolutely not. haha.
After some food, medication and sun while walking back to campus, i felt like someone kicked me hard in my stomach and my head was pounding with every step i took.
An expensive cab ride later, i got home and feeling a little better after a short nap on the cab.
Hope tmrw's gonna be better for me and my system.
I met Belle after a long goodbye from Dec.
We went Zouk last Friday with some of her friends..
Our friendship went through a rough patch and i'm glad we survived it.
After we dolled up and ready to party!
In her cosy little room.
And she would do the sweetest things for me.
She sent me an email with this and heart felt messages that made me wanna just hop on the next flight to Melb to find her.
She also sent me another self made card from miles under
while i was having my exams. =)
Came over to my place yesterday with a bottle of herbal tea and accompanied me half the day while i was completing my assignment.
belle: Thank you for all that you do. I truly appreciate you being back in my life too. :)
I know how grades and school can be tormenting for you, trust me i know how that feels esp in my freak campus. Hang in there. hugs tight*
Labels: pictures, the week-ENDS, when u just need to blogHow do you like my new blog skin?
Spend quite some time on it. =)
Over the weekend was fun!
Went to Mt Faber and Marina South Pier again.
Mum said the last time she visited Mt faber was back in daddy and her dating days.
Awww.
Lays and can drinks with great breeze.
Mt Faber!
i heart him!
They heart each other.
The still newly weds - i think.
ET eyes!
Standby.. Boom!
Boobies!
Sunday morning when baby and me head out for breakfast @siglap,
spotted this really cute boy.
You'll see him every 50m smiling at you.
1st time seeing some one so happy strapped aye.
He's such a cutie!
Pictures of the scrapbook i made for the anniversary.
M&Ms milk chocolate melts in your mouth not in your hands. hehheh
Exams on this thursday, i have no clue why am i not in the least bit anxious or anything.
Open lap top instead of open book, but i guess it doesn't really matter.
I did those so called electronic notes so that i can refer.
2 hours for 4 essay questions.
Hmm... seems like i am gonna be little pressed for time.
Okay, gtg back for some stupid meeting in school.
Mummy in nice cheong sam! Illusionist! ANd i start having fetish making faces at the camera while he drives. heh heh. Ok. end of lesson. end of blog post. :") Labels: pictures, updates, when u just need to blogI have heaps of datelines on my neck.Miss lala's perfect wedding is over, so is my emcee-ing and speech in front of 300 people. Best part: got a lot of girls crying aft my speech including mummy, of course myself too. 
Pictures are to be up here soon, i think miss lala alr posted some on her facebook.
A few more weeks till i get to the end of the semester and SUMMER holidays, and a thai getaway in JULY. =D
Cant wait cant wait.
Ethics class sucks. toooo boring to be true. (its a saturday, you see)
Classes, assignments, grades, really wo kan kai le (not giving up but just taking things a lot lighter not as its face value..)
Barbie and ken's themed party tonight.
2 weeks later, slogan tee party.
Seems like everyone's 21st are themed parties.
Folks at home all arent in town.
Dad: Golfing in thailand.
Mum, sis, bro-in-law and families: Batam weekend trip .
Sigh.
I once again made personal sacrifices for Fucking campus.
but nvm, i'd get as much done as possible.
Oh yes, this morning i was awaken by the sweetest scent of strawberries and pancakes.
Baby made me breakfast in bed.
Awwww.
i gathered all my strength to open my eyes this morning wondering why was he up before me esp on a weekend. And he came in through the door with a plate like this, sayin "Good morning baby! look!!":
Few weeks before we went to science center.
I would sae it really changed drastically since i was little, ok, i only went there once.
Or maybe its just fascinating for children then.
BUt this time, i had my 1st visit to the omnitheatre and the simulator ride there.
Rather interesting to sit with those kids in the ride and see those exhibits they have there.
They are extremely amused.
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My hair's getting really long. (ok bit random)
i wonder if i should keep it long again. hmm.
oh yes, went to the new timbre with Miss lala bridemaids at the arthouse.
Pretty interesting and nice place to chill.
Cant wait to go there again for Ngak to play.
Oh yes, the star search 1st runner up guy is in this ethics class.
Not too bad presentation skills, oh, some people's an actor.
Only an mere minimal expectation to perform well in front of everyone.
Celebrated mum's and javien's birthday too.
Got her a brilliant chocoholic bday cake. yums!.jpg)
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Did a little test at facebook.
According to the Wedding Algorythm, You Will Marry In: 4 YEARS AND 1 MONTHS
wah haha.
Tht's when i'm 26 (same as miss lala) woot.
This was me (18th oct 07, 0936): I’m very exhausted. Why can't You just grant me what You've grant me all my life? I work hard, You gave me all i worked for. I'm beyond exhaustion can bring me to but you have to make it so hard for me. Yea, sure. Grades aren't my life. Yea. Perhaps i'm NOT made for figures, i hate them in fact. But i don't have a choice. For now, really i only wished for a just pass. Fuck the As, the Bs, I’m getting just at my wits end sometimes I don’t even know how to take another breath in school. Okay. We move on with life nonetheless. We go on attending life events one after another. Let’s start off from my beloved sis getting her certified MRS LEE. Beams* Then, over this weekend was my eldest cousin going thru his customary marriage. I love the pictures that they took. Always liked any damn wedding pictures I see, they are all so delightful. Hee. The first time I see my parents being offered tea formally and also an almost adult me getting the real meaning of marriage. Its considerations, money, friends, relatives, alcohol, preparations, the vows they take till they leave this world, the life they will spend together here on, etc. involved. Unlike younger days where wedding dinner is plainly just eat eat eat to your heart’s content. Despite the popularity of infidelity existence, I somehow still believe in marriage – the union of 2 souls forever kind of shit. MC or reception I really don’t quite know to which one I should be going for. But I guess I should be worrying bout my upcoming 21st first. PJs or masquerade? This weekend I’d be doing up the invitation and sending it out. J After speaking to a fellow year 4 project mate in my MPW (aka: Alrighty. That’s all for this week. Say hello to hell in few weeks. Labels: crazy work load, the week-ENDS, updates, when u just need to blog
Its like a used up 110% of my body strength to push the push cart but it only moves 0.01 meters.
Yes. Its that kind of feeling. I put in double the effort, I reap half of whatever I gave.
This is gonna be the first D in my SMU journey ain’t it?
I guess so. i kept telling myself, grades really aren't that important and whatever.
But why does it hurt so bad? its because i put in nothing but sheer efforts.
Its unfair. Why are You doing this to me?
Why is it time and again, you kept letting me fall into that extreme form of disappointment?
Yes, they are not life and death kind of important. But i am not even asking for like 80, 90, even 70?!?!#?$?@
A second best. Im always in the 2nd best alll my life so far.
Sec 1B to 4b, pri 1-2 to 6-2.
You even gave me my best in my poly days.
Why doesn't this principle apply anymore?
i work hard i get shit/borderline pay off.
WHY!!!?????
I keep trying but You constantly take that fighting spirirt away from me.
I pay attention, i wake up early, i do homework, i sleep late to do even more work, i try and try and try.
But the least it could do it giving me a little strength to continue moving on.
I just need some kind of assurance sometimes that i'm still doing okay.
All these while of fighting has been being reciprocated somehow.
To know i am Ok, still ok, i need to be okay to continue.
However, all these, all these ARE NOT ok.
where am i gonna gather more strength?
where can i start feeling more confident stepping in grounds of my campus?
i need that slight more than a borderline to know that i am still that same and sane.
Thank you darling, you're the best. :))
I’m really happy (i shall just use the simplest word), my heart twists and whirl with sweetness when their vows are being exchanged. That’s perhaps how bliss is supposed to mean and feel, yea? Truth to be told, it’s every girl’s dream to get married and be gee bout it for the longest time isn’t it? And this time it’s my sis’s turn. Oh btw, I’m here typing my blog post again on my train ride to school.
Labels: Enraged, when u just need to blogI still can't quite digest what happened to me the entire day yesterday.
Even before i woke up.
I never thought i would blog when i open my eyes today but i know its been wanting to be published since yesterday. But i was too busy and tired over all the crap shit i was going thru.
Which i never once deserved.
I wanted to jump up and down and BITCH her back till all my inner venom is out.
But kat was right.
I shouldn't go that low like her.
YOU, of all people i trusted was a pure disappointment.
Perhaps u're being watched that you can't read here anymore.
But really, i never eva thought a girl that u barely knew can take you over like this.
I knew you for years. YEARS!
And you could just sit back and allow all of this to happen.
Is the frenship that fucking vulnerable that u can't doing anything about it?
Is a "feeble" woman worth everything we built over the years?
Have you now seen this hysterical and bloody scary sight of hers?
Or do you still think u are all out for love?
life is a torture without her? So in love with someone like this?
No matter how much i want to try to defend you, i cant think of another reason why u have to repeat what happen in the morning happen again in the afternoon. Except for you willingly be a puppet and breaking a promise you made.
How could a man be so infirm bout things?
i looked upon you as a confidant, a best friend.
I let you in the comfort zone where only pals can come into.
i often try to be there for you when u needed some one. (recall: when u wanted someone to speak to at the start of things?)
I let you even interact with my family.
And to think they were so positive about you, often singing praises about you.
Even made another friendship outta it and that u became important enough to be a distinguished guest and significant role for the upcoming occasion.
HOW CAN YOU do this NOW!
HOW? i can't comprehend.
Isn't love about trust and faith in order for it to be long term (as you wanted)?
Isn't being in a relationship, not only u can be happy but also being able to trust ur partner, being able to allow your partner to trust and be friends with people whom u trust too?
i wanted to meet her on top of everyone else.
Was i even given that chance to?
No.
Let alone getting to see or "seduce" you?
Seriously, its so fucking unfair.
Worse, you allow her to keep on saying or thinking about such things about your good friend.
What has become of you?
i never knew you like this.
Have u seriously read the things she typed?
Not only to me but also to my sis?
Have u ever thought about it?
How much it takes be irrational to do this?
Eventually, shes gonna take control of every thing in your life, can u see that already?
It pains me to lose my good friend.
It pains me even more to know that our friendship over the years is being ruined by someone whom i did not even get to meet and is low and filthy with her words and you choose to let go of me as a friend rather than that someone being hysterical, plain mad and you barely know (now).
Do u still think u understand her that well?
Can you see this side of her now?
This side that i told you to took some time to get to know.
And not skip and dive into a relationship like this?
You still want her, on top of everything else.
Want to listen to her.
Want to do everything she ask you to do.
And continuing letting her being a coward who can only hide beside a speaker phone to dictate you? Gather all the strength and breath to sms such stuff, scream over the phone, be all mighty and big to initiate things and lose it all when its time?
You think its tragic.
i think its pathetic.
If its that tragic she should be in the hospital not in your room.
Perhaps admitted to A&E and then to the psychological wards where she could be treated for excessive paranoia.
She was like this the last time isnt it?
And then she got well again rite?
Perhaps that guy left because he saw this side of her.
All these just simply shows :
Miss lala: still want to thank you for everything. love ya. =D
Labels: the week-ENDS, updates, when u just need to blogand i mean way too fast. Its gonna be the whole week of the routine sick in the stomach school regime. Too be very frank, i thought this semester would be so much better. But i guess i was wrong. I challenge myself everyday to see it in a different perspective. Yet it often brings me back to square one. Mugging the textbook yet not being able to handle the questions or even understand it really gets into you. That level of depression is really horrible. Okay. School aside. (i realised it always urges me the need to blog due to school)
Friday Kat and i went to the Diana Ser's talk remember?
She's really pleasant both audio-visual-ly! lol*
Very nicely paced talk.
Though i felt certain things that she mentioned about were pretty much branding concepts
just that i've learnt it back in TP days where we applied in for companies. (see! Marketing rocks! hahaha!)
I think she provided a really good perspective and many examples from her life stories.
i loved that Get REAL! program she hosted.
She constantly pushed herself to the limits for that program - where she says that is how much her passion has drove her to.
Motivated us to think of your future "branding" for yourself.
So if u were to ask me what my passion and my interest is at,
i'd still tell you its marketing, its making/seeing creative advertisements.
I had never once had 2nd thoughts of how much i like advertisements, branding, marketing related activities. That i definitely call it a passion.
The creativity in an advertisement takes a hell lot of brain cells away,
and its amazing how much it can affect/persuade a consumer's decision within just
30-45 seconds.
I think its super brainy and creative when you become able to transform a tacky image/brand into some almighty classy image being thought of by others. A jingle or a tagline that gets everyone talking(remembering) all ur effort u pumped in.
Thats what i wanna do, thats the job i know i will love to do everyday.
Like how diana ser is driven and passionate bout her job.
But seriously, management science and finance isn't even near what i was talking about.
So why did force us to take it even? argh! Ok. i better don't get started.
Oh yes! And saturday night was My bondue group freshies so called gathering.
And initially was just me and Janice that appeared.
Some were sick (i bet its the smu stress virus) ,
some can only come later,
the rest just vanished for no/invalid reason.
Basket. Seriously! they were so on bout it over the mass emails sent.
Luckily i wasnt the one organising.
hehe. But still i think Janice's initiative was really commendable. :)
She laughs like me i think, in terms of volume and pitch. haha.
That poor girl told me she broke down in week #2.
Really. i SO understand.
But when it was my time i hung on till bout week #7 and it was really devastating.
We had fun still, with the combination of late/ unshowered / cranky of attendees.
Baby joined us later that night.
We went brewerkz. :)
The crazy 18 year old who finishes one mug of beer in 3 seconds.
Then i finally caught Ratatouille with Miss lala, Jav and Baby.
The Rat is cute to the max pls. haha.
And today, accompanied Miss lala to her wedding gown fitting again.
Woot!
She was really beautiful!!!!
When the lady took the veil and put on her head,
it hit me really hard this time, this is really happening, my dearest sister is gonna get married. With those wedding bell songs, her whole bride aura all casted upon me.
And i think it would such lovely moment to see the real day.
So much so i tink i will cry more than my mum. haha.
Miss lala: i love you so much! So happy for your wedding. :)))
Little princess Chloe was there too. Shes so adorable! Especially with the little tummy after lunch. hurr!
Her Mummy in the background.