27 Nov 1986.
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SMU BBM Student.
Not the average girl-next-door
A almost typical Sagittarius
For you to judge, not for me to say.
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Labels: brink of death, fucking campusI'd love to blog everyday.But really, my life's now is all 4 hours of sleep, loads of caffeine and all day long in campus. Please give me sometime to to do this all over again when i bid my last goodbye in campus. Unenthu waves slowly*
Labels: crazy work load, fucking campusIt feels almost weird typing into this small blogger box again. haha. Wow. Before you know it, it's Mid of March.My trip to Macau and Hongkong was fantastic and memorable. Enjoyed my stay in Hongkong and new found friends in class.Did I mention my phone bill just came and it amounted at $128.Tmd. I'm beyond broke.Tuition-less for the past 3 months.But thinking back, i think i had it better this semseter, though poor but more time for myself, family, friends and Zj. So i guess its still worth it?Its almost the end of the semester in about 4 weeks. With 1 week to study week, my god. 3 weeks!?!Lucky me, 2 exams this time round.I get all the freedom i want on 14th Apr 09.Feel very free to date me out. :)So it has been a mad rush for me since I got back till now.Am still working on the freaking slides for that old bitch that we are supposed to present to.Oh yes!I got my internship at Shiseido too.Excited! Despite the almost demeaning pay, i hope i get to learn a great deal and plant a opportunity to work there upon graduation.Internship commences 27th Apr 09. :)I need a dose of my drama daily. I heart gossip girl and Grey's. Been in having an affair with GG so much, I asked Zj to not talk to me for the last 10 mins of the show. haha!So Okay, here's the short update. no more talking now. XOXO,Gossip Girl Addict.
Labels: fucking campus, updates, when u just need to blogIt is exactly a month from my last update.
Yeps. I'm so lazy to blog these days. haha.
Before i logged on i started blog hopping, as usual i Missed out quite a bit.
haha. And I Updated my 'soft' memory of things.
I missed Kailing.
Her korean trip seem soooo fun! haha.
Btw, here are some very over due pictures.
Alright so how was my holidays?
I was working at Hasbro (Lena's workplace) as a so-call intern/temp staff.
In the World of toys, it has been fun, tiring, lazy and mostly busy.
But really I think i can see myself doing such work when i graduate, that is if i can find smth like this to begin with.
Thinking of an exhchange in my last semester (next sem - yayy!) in Taiwan.
PLease pray for me that i get it!
I'm so dying to go!
Oh yes and i chopped my hair off again. haha.
SO the pictures that you see here are not exactly how i look anymore.
I spent my NYE watching the fireworks from afar at Marina Barrage area.
The best part of December 2008 is probably Zoukout 2008.
My very first Zoukout.
One of a kind Experience. :)
Will consider going there again next year. :)
Sch's hitting into week 2 now and it sucks.
Still can't assimilate.
This Afternoon i went back to TP with some TP turned SMU peeps.
Had fun reminiscing and also complaining about our current campus.
Truth to be told, i really still missed TP and still proud to be part of it till date.
Oh wells, we're almost done with the hard part of SMU now.
Keep telling myself all will be over so soon.
Frequent meetings were held to review project progress and overall statues of project with full attendance by all group members. (fucking rubbish, they have never attended ANY single meetings) Every member was assigned with specific tasks and to follow up on tasks with our best efforts. (they were only expected to write this fucking report which turned out to be 14 pages of rubbish that i edited and rewritten from page one and still can write this shit out to hand up) A project proposal was completed with a combined group effort in planning, designing of the designated system. Every member was involved in planning, designing of the proto of the system. (bloody liar) 3 good souls (names are removed to ensure privacy) were in charge of the overall implementation and ongoing project development to ensure project phase requirements are completed and utilizing of VBA. Asshole 1 and Asshole 2 were in charge of collection of data and testing of the system in user’s perspective by providing constructive feedbacks regarding any improvement to the system. (that is antoher lie, God pls punish her today - they have never ever touched the system.) Lastly, the final report was prepared by Asshole 1 and Asshole 2 while 3 good souls ensure adherence of the report’s content to the meet the report requirements.(Rubbish again, the entire report was full of this kind of rubbish that she wrote, she doesn't even know what the system really does) An update of the project progress to the client is represented by one good soul, this is to inform the current accomplishment and overall status. This is just one small chunk of words, as you can see from a para of 8 sentences only 2 were correct and truthful. This has got to be the worst report i have ever seen in my life so far, worse than those laggards back in tp, super serious! Asshole 2 got really worries after I talked some sense into him and started becoming desperate, keep offering to help us do formatting (which is like duh? when i edit i make sure the formatting is done as well) even offered to send us home from school ytd. wth. Argh. No wonder i get older. Freak tired. The other day my laptop charger got burnt and smoke started seeping out from the duct tape that i taped to the exposed wires. wth. Bought a compatible one that cost almost 50. Went Avenue Q last saturday, enjoyed every single cent i paid. The puppets are really adorable and hilarious. Labels: argh., crazy work load, fucking campus, updates, when u just need to blogIt's the type of week in school where sometimes you don't even remember what your name is.
Irresponsible groupmates are a serious no-no at such times.
Nonetheless, i have two of them in my team.
The project work is incredibly intensive and seriously i think they deserve nothing.
Today was the due date for everything.
And yesterday when i informed them about the meeting (which is so not surprising)
Asshole 1: "huh? meet for what? since when there was a meeting?"
Asshole 2: " I really have no time. i need to rush back home to do my finance ppt that is due tmrw also".
ME and the other two poor souls ended up leaving school at 12.45am.
When i got home i could barely feel my legs. I got up at 645am and i only lie on my bed to sleep at 2am.
I can't understand why these people are so selfish.
I told them off yesterday.
But i still think they are fucking irritating, i had to screw the up before i explode.
THey din do shit.
wanna See what one arsehole wrote in the report?
Here is: (check out bold words)
I hope santa brings me a new laptop. haha. I am such a Wishful kuku.
Baby says the paper mentioned that they practiced with the puppets till their fingers grew blisters.
But they were fantastic.
:))
Labels: fucking campus, SICSWhen Zj told me today he saw his friend's MSN nick was "Concealer is my best friend",
I thought that sounded just right for me as well.
I Thank God it is not for pimply issues but the Zouk looking dark rings imprinted on my drained face each day.
The lack of sleep is far worse than back in TP days.
It's killing me inside so much that I decided to take a break for tmrw morning's visit.
Mummy's going for check up tmrw evening so no home cooked dinner for me tmrw.
It has been a week since I last dine in my cozy home.
This so called recess week isn't at all rest.
Everyday of the week has been packed nothing less than anything to do with school.
Projects, meetings, field trips, retreat/trainings, elections, etc.
Speaking of which, yours truly has been elected to be the Vice President of SICS for the special interest clubs. To help refresh your memory: SICS = Special interest and Community service sodality.
If you haven been a constant reader here, you would kinda remember that was the other cca that i was in apart from Gradtour. ;)
So yes, the official term of office starts in Jan 2009 and ends Dec 2009.
Its filled with apprehension and anticipation i would say.
They tried to persuade me in running for president but I chose not to.
I choose more time to accompany my family, friends and myself. :)
Alrighty, I'd head back to my sexual individual assignment.
For a preview of what my assignment is about, click here.
Labels: crazy work load, fucking campusThe long intervals of updates can only be justified by mere exhaustion from school (lessons & cca) & tuition.
Once again, I am only typing this because i am sitting in a uber lousy class of Market Research. I am clueless to how he can go on and on about Statistics instead of teaching us any other stuffs. My good friend from school calls him a Bast**d. haha.
GradTour is nearing very soon.
Miss lala is right, despite all these shit i am going thru for this.
I can use them in my resume in future.
:)
Yes athey! Bangkok Pictures are in the midst of the collage and they are done now.
TADA!
I used up all the time to do the collages. Hence, this short post.
Till, the next lesson.
Ps: i have chopped off my hair a month ago. and i have put on about 4kg.
Feel like fainting as i type that out.
Hi everyone I like to welcome all of you onboard for the inaugural This email is late by 5 days, but that’s because we have many promising candidates that requires careful consideration. (Very sorry!) Furthermore, a total of 7 people chose the role of Marketing Head! (Is this the in-thing nowadays?) As such, not every one of you will receive your most preferred post. However, you are selected because we feel that you can make a meaningful contribution in your post. Chairperson – Ben Toh Vice-Chairperson – Joshua Tan Secretary – Chua Yi Rong Marketing Head – Sharon Yeo Hwee Ru IT Head – Leong Zhenyan Business Liaison Head – Kong Yen Lin Business Liaison Head – Lee Kuo Ping Business Liaison Head – Derrick Wee Teck Chye Sponsorship Head – Our first meeting will be on next Monday (5th May 2008), 7pm. Venue will be confirmed later. Warmest Regards, Ben Toh Labels: fucking campus, Grad tour, shortage of slp, SICSBut i am awake now coz i had to check my email and practice my freaking ppt that is due tmrw morning for class. I hate having to squeeze in the morning train. People there has nv seen any seats in their lives they'd RUN to them and push anything/one in their way. Retards.
I caught Ironman earlier. NICE!
I like the that iron man actor, very manly and sparkling eyes. Woot.
Ok. He might be reading this but i bet he agrees.
hahaa. Nonetheless, i love chubby panda.
I got most of my grades back.
I would say i am rather contented?
At least an improvement from last semester.
I miss hanging out with my girly frens and glad i am going see two of them this weekend.Miss lala is in turkey still, i hope that not-so-urban place is enjoyable and i secretly wish she will get me some nice Aladdin oil lamp. hahaha.
My primary school kid is going to china in two weeks time.
And my income is gonna be lost for the month of june.
Please recommend lobang for me.
Saving up for Bkk.
hehehe.
I just cant wait for it.
I've been waiting for so long.
To keep myself busy, i was selected for two posts in two clubs in school.
i decided to expand my network in smu, have more friends and get some more stuffs to built on my resume. :)
Email #1: (which is delayed more than 2.5 weeks, i applied for assistant mkg but also agreed to events if i din get it)
From:SMU Special Interest and Community Service Sodality
Subject: Congratulations
Hello Sharon
Sorry for the delay in contacting you. We are pleased to inform you that you have been selected to be SICS's assistant events director.
We will contact you again for any upcoming events/ projects/ meetings.
Thank you.
Best Regards
SICS
And they only informed me ytd bout the meeting tmr.
I'm sure more or less there are gonna be more meetings at 7pm in sch next sem.
Email #2:
From: Grad tour
Subject: Boarding Pass Attached!
SEE. told you. always 7pm. But i am glad i made it thru that interview with so many others competing for it and its their 1st main execu com. hur. Or they just don wan APNN?
shrugs.
Ok. going low batt on my lappy.
Labels: Enraged, fucking campus, mug timeLet me begin with my fellow team mate cum close fren's (athena) blog post because it encompasses almost the exact sentiments that i have.
"Fuck (be ready for more effing ahead). We failed our communications research report. Ru messaged me at 2.30am telling me our professor has already graded our report and emailed us our grade, which is 4.5 out of 10. My heart just dropped from my chest to my ankles, and I immediately checked our email while fumbling with the phone to call Shar up. I knew she was sleeping and this call could possibly irritate Zhen Jie as well, but I had to call and let her know the bad news. Yes, the impact was that enormous for this kind of immediacy in the middle of the night during a study break.
FUCKING HELL. First time ever in my life I failed a report. First fucking time, out of 46 projects I have done in my entire life, I FAILED a report. I don't look to well to the presentation grade because his comments were far from positive as well. I can already see my first 'C-' in school. The exam is only 20%, presentation and report constitute 50%, so save the typical comforting to work harder for the finals. Hence the more I don't quite understand why he had to send us our grade a week before the paper: to signpost us to work harder or let us know the bad news asap? WHATEVER, you just failed us without blinking an eye. I'm not that dumb to realise the additional 0.5 mark was out of sympathy.
I was on the line with Ru and Shar for 1 1/2 hours. Three of us are utterly traumatised, wondering what the hell did we do wrong or what did we not do to deserve such a lousy grade. During his consultations, the prof was very encouraging and said he looked forward to seeing our final presentation. The checkpoint with our client was unexpectedly affirmative. It's a nightmare, downright nightmare.
I was intending to hit TWC notes and another seminar of MS when I learnt about the report's tragedy. So what if I repeatedly ask "why" in my head, so what if we spent so much effort in taking down observations at the rurally situated supermarkets and risk being caught taking photographs, so what if the prof just favoured other groups who were researching on explicitly luxury products when luxury should not be defined by consumer segments as mentioned by the client, so fucking what? "
To correct her a little, it was the bloody ang moh client that gave us that awful grade instead of my professor. Nonetheless, 3 of us still knew it's bleak. That fucking blonde bald, on top of everyone, stunned our project progress not once but twice and towards the end at checkpoints he always said "Orh.. interesting, well done, girls, etc."
I jumped out of my bed at 2.30am when she called coz i forgot to change that freak mobile profile and asked her thrice "really?!?!"Its simply unbelievable. i can't come to terms with it nor i had the courage to switch on my modem and read that merciless email at 4am. he even said that we made several spelling and grammar mistakes which is not excusable for a corporate communications student (especially when you could have done a spell check easily). Yes, he is right. Apart from our Chinese surnames, WE DID NOT see ANY FUCKING RED OR GREEN zigzag lines within any of our fucking sentences that we cracked our heads to put into a fuck 2 page report for a FREAK intensive RESEARCH project. I felt accused and frustrated with that 1st sentence of his email. I wished that virus in my lap top was also present in his head so i can bring him to CIT and kill him.
Nevertheless, deep down in my heart i knew its a battle for a lost cause. We'd never win. We will never win a battle with a general deeming his army was already lousy comparing to the rest.
It was clearly evident who he liked and who he didn't. No matter how much we attempt to work towards what he wants.
The sheer amount of effort we put in was indescribable. How many supermarkets we went,the amount of scrutiny that was given to the overwhelming product-oriented supermarkets, the thrashing we got from trying to take pictures when he initially said it was not important and the client in the end say its was important. He just has to screw us up over and over.
His requirements was forever changing. For a moment he wants A and we try to deliver he said we were "Yes. not fully this not fully that." then we worked towards that inadequacy and he now says "no attempt was for this and that (when we tried) , more research on your part would be better." WTF. Our research was stated right there but its just never up to what you want, it's false, insufficient to what you need. then, what the hell is??!?!?! Problem is, we don't even know what exactly you want because only those you favour would match up to your ever changing expectations and requirements.
I feel unjustified and annoyed at how can all our hard work only fetch a fail grade. So what if you will only release the grade after our exams. In our hearts, we already know what you are going to give (since the exercise before the project) to us and to the rest. I realised Kat's group suffered the same fate. Still, I'm just very affected. I can think of some small flaws that can be improved but i know it definitely was not sufficient for a fail.
FUCK. i cannot suppress this.
Lets share with you another crucial aspect of this campus - Class participation.
Recently, campus TV network came up with this.
Class Participation, A Documentary from SMU Campus TV on Vimeo.
The balloons are really funny and cute. In fact, i think its illustrates the emotions and faces that you see in class day in and out. There is this girl that wrote a rather harsh and long blog post bout this video that she has seen. She's an American but migrated to Singapore when she was 4 and she went thru our Singapore education system, formerly in NUS now she's back in the States studying psych.
Reading her really long post, i think some of her thoughts coincides with mine.
Participating in class of course there are pros and cons but i believe the pros are more.
To certain people, is fluff, is bullshit, is not necessary or even just a talk to score points.
Thing is, they think is that easy to just talk in class. It is easy but consider the large class size of bout 40 people wanting to grab that opportunity to speak up against you, your professor could possibly hide "stupid" in front of u and perhaps hearing others in the toilet commenting bout your "talk" being bimbo, extra and fucking irritating. That. Is something the system, students or professors can't capture with the system.
In the documentary, one of the moustachey professor is my year one instructor. He might say "i would never criticise any of my students. There are no stupid answers. It's how the professors facilitate the class discussion, etc." Truth to be told, he is by far the worst professor at doing that.
He completely sucked big time. I can vividly remember him saying "women are stupid" in class. SERIOUSLY?!?! I just was damn pissed with him and he just deters me from further participation especially when he tried to dismiss me few times when i participated. Mind you, its really difficult for a freshman to assimilate into that new 'talking' culture. Moreover, we all come from a background that doesn't foster that kind of 'talk' and it doesn't help when that fucking TA (who happens to me my business camp facilitator) told me in my face, "WHAT the hell is WRONG with you? just participate, its not difficult to speak up in his class." Bloody basket. Just because he is used to this culture doesn't mean he can be that rude to me and make sweeping statements of me not wanting to participate. He didn't ask why. Bloody arsehole.
Ok, that aside. That blogger i was talking about earlier.
Here's something she says that i think makes the same point that i agree bout the system.
"... And yet again, we still hold America as the epitome of progress and whatnot. I don’t get the Singaporean system, quite honestly. We adopt a British education system for the first 12 years and then you except the students to automatically adjust to a system that is so radically and structurally different (read “Sponsored and Contest Mobility and the School System” by Ralph H. Turner if you’re interested in the differences between the American and British systems of education. In short, education is not an independent faction and is generated by the cultural values in any given society) in university. You cannot expect us to be raised in a culture founded on elite values (nitpick with me about this and I swear I will cut you) and then suddenly say ‘okay, we’re all equal and we always need to stay on our toes and be competitive!’ and expect us to change our ideas like that. I feel SMU seems to have meshed these two ideas together, except now you’ve generated a student population that competes with the world while believing themselves to be superior to their own people. Not exactly a good thing to discriminate against your own, sweets... "
She continues challenging the notion of correlation between being vocal and being better employees in future. While maybe there is no data but i guess the reason why they wanted class participation in the system explains why, the industry saw such communication skills lacking in their employees, You can get straight As but if you can't present you ideas to your clients/bosses, you can't maintain positive relationships with fellow colleagues/ potential clients, i guess your life is only gonna get tougher. So for that, i think class participation is still having pros over its cons.
And of course its about quality participation, and not a being a blabbering idiot (who u can instantly spot in class.) who wants to butt in, in every damn sentence the professors tries to say. its really annoying. Think: that Indian girl in my coms class. the whole class hates her without a doubt except her only fellow friend in class.
You think before you speak - at least that is what i do. its true that we can't change a personality trait, however, as we do learn from our FT class, even networking skills can be learned over time. i guess being able to speak up in front of a class and overcoming that fear can too be learned/ abolished. Despite asking for those data she mentioned, i think its pretty obvious that Singaporeans are naturally more conservative being Asians in nature.
Since we were little, we were always told by our parents "I say No means No, don't challenge me and don't ask why." We grow up into adults that are little afraid of voicing out our opinions thinking it maybe too rude or insensitive. But i think its only logical to mature as we grow up, and from it i learn that we CAN voice out but just be tactful. Its always about how you phrase your vocabulary not whether you can say or not.
Additionally, Elaine brought up another point that i think of too.
"... What my experience has taught me is that the professor knows more than you do. That’s the entire purpose of teaching: to impart knowledge. You cannot come into a Psychology class and proclaim, ‘I think video games influences aggression’; you don’t have the data and research knowledge the professor has.
The best professors, I believe, impart to you the knowledge required to make your own decisions. That was the sole reason why I fell in love with my History 331 class. Schools of thought are not new in any medium, and you have to find where you stand in the arena. A professor isn’t supposed to push onto you what he believes, because if he is intelligent enough, he should concede that there are other schools of thought that can explain this better. This is really the entire principal of what psychology is founded upon. There are multiple schools of thought (cognitive, behavioural, biological, psychoanalytical, etc), and all who teach Psych agree that it is a combination of all that possibly influence our behaviour.
If all you’re doing in class is challenging what the professor says, then I think it says something about the professor..... "
I can't tolerate those fucktards who think so highly of themselves (there are many in my school) and they just love to argue they way out whenever they are pointed out that there can be improvements made. Think: the same girl from my coms class, her project group's performance and their Q&A. Downright impolite and irritating.
lastly, i totally agree with her saying "If the boss doesn’t like you, you’re never getting promoted, and if you’re employed by a boss who has been described as Machiavellian or authoritarian, then speaking up is not going to do you a bit of good at all." How true, see my professor who fail me in time to come (refer to 1st paragraph).
Ok. dinner time.
Ethics exams tmrw. arggghhh.
If you wanna read more bout her comments you can go to: http://www.confutatis.org/20080331/class-participation-and-smu/
