The veri first time i saw her grinning from ear to ear.
The very 1st time i saw her welcoming us frm so far away frm the house.
THe very moment i know how much she missed us as much as we did.
I was touched as much as delighted.
Just seeing tht alone, almost brought me to tears.
It's been so long since i last saw her.
But it shortlived. it had to be.
it barely hit a 45min conversation.
While it used to be a weekly, whole aftnoon place they i enjoyed being in it.
We dont haf a choice.
We din want any of these to happen.
Tell me. just why did they want to take away all of these tht we all had?
i noe he feels a lot worse.
The emotions were all written all over his face.
The white hair was been muliplying so rapdiy as well.
Not to mention the amt of weight tht he has lost too.
my heart just simply ached so bad.
the amount of problems & stress
just don seem to be able to subside.
i noe he's feelin so awful and yet,
he was still strong in front of us.
As much as we din wan to leave, we didnt haf a choice.
Seeing her going thru the process of ageing, the worry tht she still has to go thru,
the missing of her beloved grandchildren, worst, the terrfied experience of almost losing her spouse.
i really cant help but to only feel, so painful in my heart.
She's just so near yet so far from us.
Just how long more does this 'battle' still haf to go on?
Just how many more times we haf to visit her in such a way?
Just how much more time we still can haf her around us?
none of us knew.
maybe only the above knows.
so can those ppl just get out of our way, letting us love her, accompany her and allow her to be
a happy granny?
all i can do now is to only hope her being blessed wif better health
and being less tormented wif such stuff.
Before we left, she expressed how much she wants to see my sis graduating wif flying colours
and she'll be over the moon.
How much she din want us to leave,
were all reflected when she wouldnt leave the gate till the sight of us were gone.
i love u granny. i always did, though i din showed it orally nor physically.
Evryting at home seems fallin apart since they haf all been
the declining stage in their product life cycles.
air cons, door magnets, tv, printer, etc.
things at cheer werent good as well.
At the end, felt lyk a total awful idiot
when i genuinely cared. and all i tot was worthwhile holding on to were
all gone on tht thurs.
Everything has left for tht squad and the ppl there on thurs,
except for the passion and love i still haf for the sport, cheerleading.
hopefully NTU aces would be my next affiliation.
