I finally graduated from school.
Out of the walls of SMU, "they" once told me there were a lot more than what I see in school.
No Magma, Suma or whatever, I have Karma? haha.
I still find this joke little funny.
I've been spending my time fb-ing, going / hanging out w others (v minimal), CNY shopping (which i still havent find something i really like/want, job hunting.
The moment I hear the word JOB, churns my insides.
I hate going thru so much effort, time travelling up and down so many times a week.
And just finding myself going to the actual interviews like 2 times? Yes, those darn agencies.
It drains your energy, money and hopes.
Why can other people at the age of 25 be like directors/VPs and making good money with great careers ahead of them, while I work my ass off for a job that pays maybe 1.8k?
1 point 8 fucking k? Then why in the world should i spend the last 3 and a half years studying like shit?
Is it the GPA they want that badly? Does it really affect that much of your job performance?
Rejection sucks.
And yes, nothing else but you suck that up too.
Am I really that unemployable?
I'd be too lazy to start uploading pictures in this blog from now on i think. (unless i really have the time)
So i guess, its major alphabet feasting from now on. Good luck with that. haha.
I can't sleep 'cause I am sulking that I can't really set up a business right now nor someone who just employ a marketing graduate.
Finding a damn job is really tough.
Even tougher than losing that belly of mine.
When u are caught in this situation, what else should you do to motivate yourself?
Cause it seems like its taking away all my enthusiasm that I need to go on with life or for the next interview.
Meeting with Pam Lim gave me some insights today.
I hope I get to achieve something out of it especially with an expert from home.
Just many things going thru my head.
Whenever I meet people these days, the first question will always be, "Hey, u working now?" OR "Hey, so when are you getting married?".
If you really wanna know the truth to 2 questions above.
"Neither. I am unemployed and my clock is ticking away to my expiry date plus weddings/marriages scares the hell out of me."
Fuck.
Labels: Depressing life matters, when u just need to blog
