I still can't quite digest what happened to me the entire day yesterday.
Even before i woke up.
I never thought i would blog when i open my eyes today but i know its been wanting to be published since yesterday. But i was too busy and tired over all the crap shit i was going thru.
Which i never once deserved.
I wanted to jump up and down and BITCH her back till all my inner venom is out.
But kat was right.
I shouldn't go that low like her.
YOU, of all people i trusted was a pure disappointment.
Perhaps u're being watched that you can't read here anymore.
But really, i never eva thought a girl that u barely knew can take you over like this.
I knew you for
years. YEARS!
And you could just sit back and allow all of this to happen.
Is the frenship that
fucking vulnerable that u can't doing anything about it?
Is a "feeble" woman worth everything we built over the years?
Have you
now seen this hysterical and bloody scary sight of hers?
Or do you still think u are
all out for love?
life is a torture without her? So in love with someone like this?
No matter how much i want to try to defend you, i cant think of another reason why u have to repeat what happen in the morning happen again in the afternoon. Except for you
willingly be a puppet and breaking a promise you made.
How could a man be so infirm bout things?
i looked upon you as a confidant, a best friend.
I let you in the comfort zone where only pals can come into.
i often try to be there for you when u needed some one. (recall: when u wanted someone to speak to at the start of things?)
I let you even interact with my family.
And to think they were so positive about you, often singing praises about you.
Even made another friendship outta it and that u became important enough to be a distinguished guest and significant role for the upcoming occasion.
HOW CAN YOU do this NOW!HOW? i can't comprehend. Isn't love about
trust and faith in order for it to be
long term (
as you wanted)?
Isn't being in a relationship, not only u can be happy but also being able to trust ur partner, being able to allow your partner to trust and be friends with people whom u trust too?
i wanted to meet her on top of everyone else.
Was i even given that chance to?
No.
Let alone getting to see or "
seduce" you?
Seriously, its so fucking unfair.
Worse, you allow her to keep on saying or thinking about such things about your good friend.
What has become of you?
i never knew you like this.
Have u seriously read the things she typed?
Not only to me but also to my sis?
Have u ever thought about it?
How much it takes be irrational to do this?
Eventually, shes gonna take control of every thing in your life, can u see that already?
It pains me to lose my good friend.
It pains me even more to know that our friendship over the years is being ruined by someone whom i did not even get to meet and is low and filthy with her words
and you choose to let go of me as a friend rather than that someone being hysterical, plain mad and you barely know (now).
Do u still think u understand her that well?
Can you see this side of her now?
This side that i told you to took some time to get to know.
And not skip and dive into a relationship like this?
You still want her, on top of everything else.
Want to listen to her.
Want to do everything she ask you to do.
And continuing letting her being a coward who can only hide beside a speaker phone to
dictate you? Gather all the strength and breath to sms such stuff, scream over the phone, be all mighty and big to initiate things and lose it all when its time?
You think its tragic.
i think its pathetic.
If its that tragic she should be in the hospital not in your room.
Perhaps admitted to A&E and then to the psychological wards where she could be treated for excessive paranoia.
She was like this the last time isnt it?
And then she got well again rite?
Perhaps that guy left because he saw this side of her.
All these just simply shows :
- i was right about her right from the start when i warned you about her (can we even mentioned that she's engaged and who's being the bitch now?)
- Why do we need to be sensitive bout her nationality when she doesn't wee bit feel ashamed bout what she messaged? (in fact, being so firm when she shrieking and stop breathing when she's not and when she was the one who asked to meet)
- a person can totally change under circumstances one can control ( being a man especially)
- perhaps things will never be the same again for the both of us.
- i will never forget this girl that you met.
- How much my family and my bf dotes on me .
Miss lala: still want to thank you for everything. love ya. =D
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