If u log on to msn, i swear i
meant my nick.
Yesterday was great. Todae was 360 degrees opposite.
I haven been blogging coz, yes. u got it. projects, projects and projects. Datelines are juz so close together.
Day be4 CRm submission i stayed over @ na's place again. Yes. tht was the 1st time i stayed up all nite for a report. It totally din feel good coz the next dae in skool i felt lyk vomitting, food i ate kept gettin stuck in my throat. The initial trip to bangkok was cancelled. but i'm glad abt it as well. coz once again, i learnt how much i love my dad as well as e rest of my family. Daddy: hang in there. i noe we can make it. i noe. i love u. u're always my no. 1 man in my life.
i dunno y. evrything juz has to come crushing down on me todae. I juz learnt not long ago tht my uncle, published in the straits times abt my dad. sayin he dismissed him wif immed effect. how heartless can he get. Kiak: see this is blood brothers working together in a firm.
BLOOD BROTHERS. MUMMY is crying over it wif my auntie @ my place. i'm terribly xing tong. i am. i went to hug her juz now. i love you mummy. we nit to stay strong for daddy. :)
Submission for CRm wasnt late. thank god so was IM. Jess was absent coz she had a tummy ache so me and zhen went to run the cart desipte my eyes were closing. i cant even feel my body when i got hm aft carrying the rest of the merchandise hm again. I actually ran to skool wif those 2 bags to skool to bind CRM. lyk a crazy gorilla. haha. den when i saw my bed back hm, booong* juz slept on my bed immed. darl den came along n we had a great feast. and a massage frm him. darl: thanks, i love you.
Den ytd, me and darl went to hmv to return those shoes. hmm.. i'm really glad tht we took the shoes. we sold quite a fair bit. beams* spend a great nite tog. when we got home, we broke lightsticks and put it on my bed. thanks dear. u make my world the loveliest to live in wif u.
Den come todae, marks the end of the frenship i had wif one of my used to be close fren. and i noe frm todae onwaards, i wont shed another tear again for her. i was terribly upset juz now. thank god darl was ard, lend me his shirt to rub my tears on, a shoulder to lie on and a ear to listen. was would i do without u darl? he actually wanted to bash the bf of hers upside down. but i stopped him. its pointless to do tht anyway. Let me fill u guys in.
in the morning, i called her,
her: i done evrything for Rm alr. except haven add in (z)'s wrk. ya ok. i attach the file and send to ur email.
shar: ya ok. den in the email, u tell (z) to send hers to us as well.
yes. den i gone online to read the draft she done. which i tot the whole thing was done by her. coz i tot
was everything. i juz woke up not long ago as well. ok. i read the first few pags. den was toking to na on msn.
For every 2 to 3 sentence, there was a "we", "our", "us".
Be it her or (z), i reminded them both tht, not to add in such terms, coz DR tan use to always tell us that this is informal language and we shld nv include these in a quality report. and yes. i rrmbred clearly i did told her tht.
Den aft some time, SMS came in:
her: shar. my sisters interested in the shoes lei. but u return the shoes alr.. how?
me: i'll send u e email with those pictures attached k. invoice book still wif me, ger, the RM report how come still got so many we, our, us. i tot tht time CRM i told u not to write those in a report liao? informal lang lyk wad DR tan advised us. n it's dynamic pricing not competition pricing.
her: tht's the best i haf done. if u do not lyk it. i do not gif a damn all right.
i was totally shocked. speechless.
me: i'm juz lettin u noe my comments. i noe u've done ur best. those remarks are put accross constructively. i nv sae anyting to put u down, rather, i hope tht u could use tht for future reports. we agreed on being open and honest to 1 another.
and to my surprise, her bf msg me,
her bf: since, u're so smart, y don u do evrything urself, u matha phucker? even i had enuff of u. & stop pushing ur weight ard.
WTF? lyk WTF? y are u poking ur arse into this? do u even noe nuts? i tot was her msging me at 1st but actually, it was him. nvm. still, if she din tell her those would he? and muz u sae all those don gif a damn, and me gettin all these shit frm ur bf?
me (when istill tot was her using her bf phone to reply me): thanks for being so polite towards ur gd fren. den it's ok. our fren ship ends todae. [ i meant it]
she: wher did u notice all the we, our, us? challenge identification is not i do one. for the rest, i alr made an effort to minimise it. if it still seems a lot, i'm v sorry den. pardon my bf. hes juz beside me n saw the msg
Den y din u said these when u recieve my 1st msG? WHY?????
she: i told u tht i did the quality concept onwards, den i told u tht i haven complied (z)'s wrk yet. and tht's when i told u (z) did e challenge identifaication part n application of strategies. if it's not clear enuff i even send u guys e part i've done 1st b4 consolidation. i really hope u get the facts rite. tht's all. its not tht i don tk ur feed back constructively, tried to minimise on all tht.
ok. mayb i din hear tht abt (z). so the email she sent us, isnt tht the one she haven compile? and yes. it is quality concept u've sent and yes. there is a lot of we, our ,us and ther's no challenge identification. thus, wad i read was 10 pages
of her work.
and in the mist of me being blur abt now who did wad n wad i read.
shar: but juz now u did told me u done everything alr. how in the world would i noe top part is not u've done. not only i felt tht. the rest tot of the same thing.
shar: i nv sae is u do one. neither do i noe. it's ok. i hope u took tht constructively, thts all it's ok.
to her bf: if u noe nuts abt stuff, juz keep ur bloody arse shut. i don nit u 2 haf enuff of me neither names. i don gif a damn abt u, pls.
her bf: neither do i.. so it seems tings are far worse than it seems to be.. or rather, u. tht speaks much abt ur character alr. don bother replyin back. i din ask u to in e 1st place. ciao
shar: i din ask u to msg me in the 1st place as well. talk abt my character? oh well, wad u said doesnt affect me at all. so u tink ur character is superior aft wad u've mentioned in e msg? and yes. tht's e end of our msging.
him: since u asked me a question, it is of norm to reply someone back. n dun get me wrong. i'm not tryinh to be polite.. i nit not especially 2 someone lyk u. i've nv mentioned abt my superiority in the 1st place, mayb u tink u are, tht y u asked. tht speaks even more abt ur character. let's stop messenging, i 'm disgusted.
aft which i did not reply anymore. wo tui the both of them si xing le. plz. in the 1st place he was the one msging me and den say its a norm replying and now sayin dunno wad crap. juz fuck it can? i don care anymore. she being my close fren is juz dead todae. i dunno how i shld react seeing her tml 4 presentation. juz 2 days ago, i asked her how she was feeling, is her tummy ok. and now, our frenship is over. OVER! i'm sad. but i noe it wont be 4 long. lyk wad darl said" it's not worth crying n feeling sad for such a fren." true, but it hurts still. i noe over time i'll get it over. note: those mentioned above (sms-es) are not edited at all.
i donno y everything juz has to crush onto me todae. enuff. god: when will all these stop?
na: i edited ur entry.. hee*
gone are the days we had long ger toks together.
gone are the days, u came over to stay at my place when u had a crisis.
gone are the days, we hugged each other so tite aft holidays
gone are the days, we had fun together, juz the 2 of us.
gone are the days, u will tell me i love you and fill up the whole sms wif it.
gone are the days, we feel so close tht we can share everything and anything.
gone are the days, our frenship was strong and still in my heart.
gone are the days, u lived in my heart as a best fren.
gone. its juz gone. don tell me i'm irreplacable in ur heart. coz i noe i no longer lived in ur heart since the moment i read ur don gif a damn.
