Monday, September 25, 2006
More visuals
8:21 PM
Friday, September 22, 2006
A morning greeting does wonders.
6:05 PM
"Love always panda bear. Am on the plane now and thinking of you.
tot i would send u a msg before i turn off my phone.
I want you to be happy and just know tt you are loved."
How sweet can this get?
Feels so good to recieve such msgs in the morning when u open your eyes.
Especially from special people.
:)
This week feels especially good passing, tht's because stats lesson is cancelled.
BUt den again, the 'better buck up' feel is constantly present.
U haf to catch up.
Miss lala: thanks dear. love you loads too* You're Always the one i can count on.
Eve: I miss you tons too dear!! And all tht are at ihub.i'm so sorry,
i'm really caught up with skool work i really do want to go back n visit. Will drop by whenever i can ok? hugs*
Monday, September 18, 2006
An everyday warfare not welfare.
3:59 PM
Nothing can bring u further down in spirits when you simply feel so lousy.
It completely sucks. And it’s a total new dimension of lousy-ness.
You feel useless, awful and pure misery.
What’s worse?
When the more you motivate urself to not give up, the more you find urself in only failures. You try harder and harder each day and you only find all these attempts to no avail. It takes away my appetite, my mood my sleep, my soul.
They always say “the best occupation would only be a student”
I beg to differ.
Being student has its obligations and responsibilities as well, u may argue, all u haf to do is to do well in ur studies and thereafter u don’t haf to worry.
But do you really think doing well is that simple?
Yes, just attend ur lessons and do ur assignments.
But u haf no clue at all.
There ain’t classes. Coz the class doesn’t care if u comprehend what’s in store for you. You find yourself in an environment that u haf no one to rely on.
With absolute no assistance, they leave you to die, and too bad u cant survive, you will just be left as a loser in the game of an intense competition.
Bottomline: You’re on your own. Solitary soldier.
What you are and haf now are deemed by fellow mates with false perceptions.
Everyday, seemed like war to me.
I’m not even thinking the triumph and victory.
I’m just gathering all my strength to keep myself alive in that war with so many fellow heavily armored soldiers. But bear in mind they are not in ur platoon. We fight against one another.
Thankfully, there’s a small pool of fellow rank of soldiers that’s on my side. Though not many but they share the same amount of frustration and demoralisation.
I don’t wanna give up after coming this far and I kept trying.
Till I’m entirely exhausted.
Then, think again.
What if I just die tomorrow?
And so maybe my answer was “my last moment in life is to feel miserable and stessed bout school.”
Just how contradicting can it be?
I only now know, I just have to continue to hold on with all my might coz there’s no turning back in a war that has commenced.
I kinda like the philosophy that I came to know of from two of my modules.
“I think therefore I am”
that’s just so Dr Mel but its totally true.
Tuesday, September 05, 2006
A Tremendous World's Loss.
12:20 AM
i couldn't believe my ears when daddy said
he heard from the radio tht Mr Croc hunter (Steve Irwin) died todae!
The kaki coloured shirt and berms immediately popped up when i hear his name.
Its just unbelievable that such a knowledgable man is lost just like tht.
Of course,in doing what he does best.
That marks the end of future croc files and other documentaries isn't it?
i cant help but to feel a sharp pinch in my heart.
i loved every episode of croc files.
Crocs, snakes, boars, kangaroos, just name any domestic or wild animals,
he'd knew it all.
Now that he's doing Ocean deadliest, it brought about just how deadly they can become, aren't they?
"He came on top of the stingray and the stingray's barb went up and into his chest and put a hole into his heart," said Stainton, who was on board Irwin's boat at the time. The article named "Stingray kills 'Crocodile Hunter'Irwin"
Jus how saddening can tht sound?
Notwithstanding the fact that, his kids are both only 3 n 8 respectively.
I believe many are hafin tht little turtle on our MSN nicks.
The wildlife icon's enthusiasm lives on.
A minute silence for one of my most respected man on this planet*
