Wishlist
- Nice wristlet
- Gorgeous Digital Watch
- Ipod Touch
- Adidas Originals Jacket
- More dresses!
- Nike/Adidas Gym bag
- Get another tuition kid!
- Tiffany & Co ring
- Get the hell out of school
Tossed and turned on my bed last nite. I suddenly found it so hard to sleep without u beside me. But I don haf a choice do i? I’m tired. I really am. I tried. Tried my very best my dear. But I nv seem to be able to satisfy or meet your expectation. Now, i cant even talk to u. coz u simply cant comprehend.
I’m kinda tired of trying. Exhausted to move on. Yet, upset that things haf to turn out this way. Darlings at my tag board thank u for caring. Love ya all! I woke up at least 3 times last nite. No proper slp at all. And now I am, at my dad’s office using the comp. How wonderful. No market noise level no snatching of laser printers.
Ytd when I tried to talk to her it was …. I dunno even noe how to describe. He needed that quality time with u. How can I possibly still bug u down with those stuff? I noe u still care. But when I speak, it was all torn down into pieces with variables around us. I don blame u neither was I angry. But rather, I miss her. Just her being able to sit down just the both of us, talking heart to heart.
I’m broken right inside me. And the radio is playing how can u mend a broken heart? When I watch the project superstar last nite, that song that the young guy Sang, was supposedly happy, catchy, easy listening but before the chorus was the part that sang my heart out.
Yes. i'm still stuck in the lab finaly wif some little time to blog. hee. Doing brand. i really miss my comp back at home. and yes. todae i forgot to call tht bloody pro link again. it sucks really.
I'm a confused woman. Yes i am. A BIG one. One moment i was so sure. One moment i go alll jelly. i finally noe wad's you xin wu li. I dunno where i can find tht strength. i noe i can. but i dunno y i'm hesistant a little.
treating me lyk a royal queen ytd but i noe when i'll be treated lyk an arse. skeptical abt being with u. Yet, i succumb to small little nice moments u bring me. it's noisy lyk fuck. will be back blogging later.
Monday, July 11, 2005
aft so long!
6:35 PM
i'm left with the last 10 mins in the lab now. i HATE my comp for being down. Cna't do anything. Cant blog cant MSN cant see pictures cant friendster cant do project cant cant cant!
And he just so not coming over any time soon. Arrgghh! Had s great time last wed to black and attica. Well attica isnt really our kinda place anyway. But oh wells, at least the drinks tasted good. Ms sprite died and re-lived into a red snowball. hehehe!
Mid sems are finally over but i bet i screwed the sales paper. but term break is here, break together wif work. 2ml will haf some quality time spent i hope.
Aft wad happened last nite, i'm kinda sure U are simply just not the ONE. Sad to noe and i should just stop lying to myself. Yes, i noe its just a matter of time of me adapting.
There's really no other strength for me to hold on. i'm really on the verge of giving up. this time, its really numb. In fact, no more tears would be eva shed for u as an effect of the any more arguements, quarrels, wad eva u call it..
Is this just for the sake of u being not lonely and me not noe-ing wad to do if i'm not attached. dunno confused don wan to think tired.
