Tired. Angry? Sad?
Woke up wif swallon eyes a couple of daes alr.. damn it..
wake up feeling lyk some one eye monster.
skin ard my eye is peeling as well.
Might need to go to a doc soon.
Went over to Na's place to stay over.
As usual, we had so much to tok abt.
Even the night seems not enuff for us.
Na: Thanks for accompanying me tht nite. sorry tht u din go to the hospi
becoz both of us couldnt wake up in time.
i keep ur uncle in my prayers as well.
i noe u cant help but be
a cow at times.
i still love u and i noe u will wont be a piece of beef eventually. =)
i noe u'll be really over when some one else is here.
A better some one.
Definitely nth lyk him.
Coz i noe u deserve some beta juicy cow. hee.
Stand firm lyk i always told u. u can do it.
Don refresh any of "them".
u can u can u can!!
loves n hugs*
Keep thinking these couple of days.
Yes. true enuff.
i rmbred me telling u to not call nor msg me.
but still u did.
extremely long ones.
i did the plus and minuses.
Some how the minuses came into my mind faster.
aft completing. i fell asleep without myself noe-ing.
tired aft thinking and crying.
Are the plus-es sufficent to carry on? can they overcome the minuses?
Evrything still seem tht the minuses had the victory.
i don wan to lie to myself anymore.
Although i keep asking myself y lyk tht?
y it wasnt wad i expected?
minuses to be less than one column.
Started to recieve msgs and all.
i started to read and cry again.
how i wish i could just reply and sae
"ok! we'll be alright again. i missed u as well.."
But i couldnt.
even if i did can it be for long?
But i was still empty and not ready nor strong enuff to even make any decisions.
i tot of so many aspects tht mayb i confused myself.
I JUST WAN TO BE ALONE.
Can u just leave me alone?
don force me to off my hp or block ur no.
i really don wish to.
i'm tired. just let me haf time for myself without u.
contd lyk tht history might just repeat itself.
Even if the chance might be lost.
Or mayb the last shot might still be possible.
And if it happens it will definitely be the LAST.
i'm tired. really.
If minuses can back again.
i wont even consider again.
I told u before i'm considering everything.
EVRYthing. including whether we should even continue.
Its not abt all couples face such probelms.
It abt us not being happy together anymore.
Now den tell me which every couple is lyk tht?
Bottom line is whether we can even be happy together.
Almost Evrydae hafing conflicts, arguements.
both of us just get tired n upset.
Mayb u wont coz i eventually feel tht i'm hurt each time a sorry is recieved.
and the hurt haunts a couple of daes in me though i smile at u aft tht.
just how many more smiles? how many more compromises?
or izzit just character differences?
But i'm definitely feeling much beta compared to sat.
Thanks for all the care my frens.
Kailing: Thanks ger. u're still the one tht i hold most closely to my heart.
Love ya. thank u for always being ther. maybe i alr said these a million times.
u still noe me the best. we'll meet up soon ok?
