shar's blog

Sucks to be me, an unemployed.

2010-01-29T02:19:00.002+08:00

I finally graduated from school.

Out of the walls of SMU, "they" once told me there were a lot more than what I see in school.

No Magma, Suma or whatever, I have Karma? haha.

I still find this joke little funny.

I've been spending my time fb-ing, going / hanging out w others (v minimal), CNY shopping (which i still havent find something i really like/want, job hunting.

The moment I hear the word JOB, churns my insides.

I hate going thru so much effort, time travelling up and down so many times a week.

And just finding myself going to the actual interviews like 2 times? Yes, those darn agencies.

It drains your energy, money and hopes.

Why can other people at the age of 25 be like directors/VPs and making good money with great careers ahead of them, while I work my ass off for a job that pays maybe 1.8k?

1 point 8 fucking k? Then why in the world should i spend the last 3 and a half years studying like shit?

Is it the GPA they want that badly? Does it really affect that much of your job performance?

Rejection sucks.

And yes, nothing else but you suck that up too.

Am I really that unemployable?

I'd be too lazy to start uploading pictures in this blog from now on i think. (unless i really have the time)

So i guess, its major alphabet feasting from now on. Good luck with that. haha.

I can't sleep 'cause I am sulking that I can't really set up a business right now nor someone who just employ a marketing graduate.

Finding a damn job is really tough.

Even tougher than losing that belly of mine.

When u are caught in this situation, what else should you do to motivate yourself?

Cause it seems like its taking away all my enthusiasm that I need to go on with life or for the next interview.

Meeting with Pam Lim gave me some insights today.

I hope I get to achieve something out of it especially with an expert from home.

Just many things going thru my head.

Whenever I meet people these days, the first question will always be, "Hey, u working now?" OR "Hey, so when are you getting married?".

If you really wanna know the truth to 2 questions above.

"Neither. I am unemployed and my clock is ticking away to my expiry date plus weddings/marriages scares the hell out of me."

Fuck.

We'd say a short goodbye.

2009-11-03T16:31:00.003+08:00

I'd love to blog everyday.

But really, my life's now is all 4 hours of sleep, loads of caffeine and all day long in campus.

Please give me sometime to to do this all over again when i bid my last goodbye in campus.

Unenthu waves slowly*

Mid Way of Year 2009

2009-06-28T19:05:00.000+08:00

Some updates:

Celebrated Weiting's Birthday The other day! ( I find meetings very fun to be at these days, though we are missing Robin and Mao Mao)

Those that were present that night! :) A family we call our own.
I found the dress I wanted from F21 and Joop has a similar piece in purple and guess what? It was on 70% off! $79.90 now $20! I grabbed it immediately into the fitting room! haha! Beams*
I had my time off for working on Sat, nonetheless! Happy to the max! I thought it was gone for good when I blogged the last time. Not so bad afterall yea? Am really thankful for my mgr to help me ask for it ( i knew there wasn't any obligations on her end.)
I'm ending my internship on 10th Aug 09 (and i realized it;s a public holiday! hahaha! So officially my last day's 7th Aug 09) Am both delighted and upset. Happy because i get to finally enjoy my holidays for a week before sch starts, and if all goes well i get to visit Bangkok again. Upset cause i think i will miss my colleagues heaps! They are all such a fun bunch to hang out with and i really did learn a lot here. And there's no exams/test/readings/participation in this few months in my life. This is definitely a place i wish to work in, in future.
I had a nasty fall the other day, on the filthy-est local street (ARAB Street, think: all the food, sheesha, grease, etc.) in the almost-39 degrees afternoon. While stepping down the curb, my ankles when soft and gone are the skin on my knee caps! Super painful! :( and i was limping the next few days, cannot cover blanket, can't shower properly! :( I'm such a clumsy elephant. When i got back to the office, there wasn't much antiseptic things to use on the wound and my mgr helped clean my fresh wound with hand sanitizer! I was in so much pain i burst into tears, i just couldn't scream out loud at all. The intensity of the pain, i tell you! No Joke! But am really touched when everyone asked how I was the following days. Special thanks to Boss that held my hand. :D

The pulut hitam looking wounds!
Been to a few flea markets recently, got some steals! :D
Aunty mummy's bday was on sat and we had a feast at Jumbo. Do u know they are "aprons" are u went you eat their chilli crab? haha.
Once Jul hits, i'm gonna get broke again cause all my Leo babies' birthdays are coming!
I really wanna go back to the gym! Stupid wound! Does anyone have any recommendations for lightening scars from wounds? I bet my knees are gonna so have tht!
Am meeting Brotherly, Na and Joey tonight! :)

Okay! 10 updates and random blabberings! :)

Slavery?

2009-06-16T20:46:00.000+08:00

I'm fucking paid so lowly and I have to give up my weekends?
How unfair is that?

When I say low i mean, lower than the bangalas along the road!
Argh!

But who cares?
I'm afterall the first intern they hired, beat that!

That closest encounter with huge reptile!

2009-05-26T14:43:00.006+08:00

I am only very very afraid of Snakes after I see too much Animal Planet, Okto, National Geographic.

Sheer Horrid sights of swallowing of an entire animal or even MAN! Staring protruding eyes and scaly/ slimy skin! Sooo. The Majorca new range is Chapter 23 – Innocent Pleasure. After chopping like 900 pieces of paper, I finally completed the press releases (self made book form) for the press and brand ambassadors (bloggers).

For this particular chapter, it’s themed Garden of Eden.
Of course we learnt about consistencies in a brand, so everything else, is with snakes and greens. (we dressed up our very own meeting room!)

the goodie bag i packed for them!

We went around to get the cookies and treats for journalists and bloggers.
So J did a presentation on the new products and they had a chill lax/ makeup session w the goodies we bought and I made tea from TWG. Seriously, I made so much tea I could have just fed a village, please. Btw, if you haven’t hear about TWG? It’s some super high end tea company.
Oh wells, I was a tea connoisseur for a day!

Highlight of the event? Mr Yusoff the snake charmer!
He spends $1000 a month just to feed snakes with live birds and what nots. Eeks!
Just 3 from his huge collection at home!
Enjoys a monopoly business as he performs with snakes, does magic and is really good at engaging with the crowd. :)

there they are!

beatrice is v frightened!

albino python

My colleague who is in charge of MJ and me - she's v forced too! haha

my boss who is at the extreme right! :)

SOoooo.. i told you i like my job right? :)

Let May flash by!

2009-05-25T15:03:00.007+08:00

I'm beyond broke.

If you wanna know, i I misplaced my debit card that day and some arsehole went to swipe $42 bucks off me.
Argh! I hope whatever you bought spoils on you. Few trips of clubbing, drinking, my fair share of presents for anniversary, birthdays and Mothers Day – Alll my savings, wiped out.

So primarily, that’s why I want this month to quickly pass by.

My colleagues are 3 girls in the marcoms team, J, I,E. and my Boss I’d call her ah Tan. Hahah. They are a great bunch to hang out with.

So its been almost a month on internship.
I am doing rather well and I love what I am doing and the company of my insane colleagues & boss. Full of enthusiasm and comic moments of them keeps me happy at work. I really appreciate my boss being so willingly to teach me – this makes me even want to be this industry and of course doing marcom even more in fact.

But I inspire to be My Boss when I hit her age. :)
Mother of 2, looking still so youthful, hyper, excitable, super good at PR-ing, and has a loving husband.
So I had their first Shiseido event and I got Iris (my sec sch fren) to come help me model. :)

Just added base make up!

The stylist frm japan! Cuts for 300 bucks?!!!!

ALL DONE!

Cotton wool n clip prevents crumpled fringe!

Check out the plaits! I LIKE!!!

One thing that is accurate today.

2009-04-28T16:02:00.002+08:00

how you feel about yourself now (The World)

You are about to reach, or are already enjoying, a period of total fulfilment, wholeness and satisfaction - the arrival of your hearts desires. You feel satisfied with what you have achieved and are enjoying the rewards of past efforts. A time of happy outcomes, material wealth and greater spiritual awareness.

what you most want at this moment (The Moon)

The cards suggest Sharon, that what you most want at this time is some clarity and less of these confused emotions that leave you fearful and vulnerable. You want to know the outcome, because you are so unsure about how you feel. Use your intuition to guide you away from any deception and ride this out - it will turn out alright in the end. The Moon is a good omen if you are in a clandestine affair.

your fears (The Fool)
You are afraid of making the wrong decisions. There is a warning here that fool-hardy, impetuous actions could lead to major problems. Perhaps you feel that you don’t have control over a situation, either personal or professional. You may feel unable to complete a task or stay in a current relationship and fear the consequences of your decisions. Perhaps you know deep down that what you want isn’t really such a good thing.

what is going for you (The Lovers)

New love and commitment will enter your life, even if there’s no one on the horizon - be prepared for a surprise. Throw caution to the wind and expect joyous and happy times ahead.

what is going against you (Death)
This is a time of anxiety, depression and fear with all the turmoil and distressing events happening in your life - it's time to show what you are made of. What has now come to an end leaves room for brand new beginnings in life, love and career. However radical events may be in your life, believe that life goes on and life is what you make of it.

outcome (The Magician)
A time of positive action with great potential, you are full of self-belief and feeling very empowered. It's time to show everyone exactly what you’re made of. You will have the ability to think on your feet and The Magician is an excellent omen for success.

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How true how true! My tarrot card reading! :D

Smelling Holidays

2009-04-13T14:15:00.003+08:00

I should be burying myself with books, notes and what nots but i Am HERE. hahaha.

I battled one hell of a paper this morning.

Victory or not, all depends on her (my prof) now.

Tmrw's my last paper.

For that matter, if all goes well with Taiwan - my last freaking exam paper in SMU.

Whoots! I really hope things will go smoothly with the application.

And that stupid director isn't replying my emails.

Sickening!

Oh yes. I got my new tuition kid as well!

Her name's Regine.

Pri 6 and her mum told me from P3 till now she hasn't passed any of her science exams.

OMFG.

And only now she gets a proper tutor for science.

Suddenly, I realised Lorraine was a lot more superior after teaching Regine for 1.5 hours.

Worse, she keeps texting me for i-don't-know christ sake!

Awhile "hello" me, awhile "Teacher, do you have a blog?" Wtf?!?!

Afterawhile i stopped replying, testing my patience.

She better don't turn out to be one small yet masssive bitchy thing like Lorraine or She can kiss goodbye to her PSLE grade. Wah. Her mum must have really taught I'm some God of Science that can transform her daughter that is clueless about science since Pri 3.

I've alr planned for the whole week right after tmrw.

I bet you wont get to read another post till end of next week maybe? haha.

To do during the holidays:

- Go for TGIO by gourmet club

- Go Kart in Malaysia

- Meet Na, Kailing (since forever), Cher + xh, Aloy

- Dye hair?

- Trim eyebrows

- Beach Volley

- Tanning

- Tuition

- Save money?!?!

- Wild wild wet with family

- Food Trail (photography course) by SMUSAIC

- Hunt for anniversary present

- Complete ZJ's bdae present (part 3) :)) --- baby: u're v curious right? hur.

Hongkong Pictures -- 1

2009-03-25T21:32:00.000+08:00

Fly me to Australia

2009-03-24T21:01:00.029+08:00

FLY ME TO MELBOURNE!

"HOW'S IT GOING, MATE?"

When I say ‘Australia’, people think of exotic aimals like hopping kangaroos and hanging koalas on eucalyptus trees. Popular word associations are no doubt, ‘Great Barrier Reef’, ‘vineyards’, ‘aboriginal culture’, ‘Movie World’, ‘Philip Island’ and ‘Grampians’. Images of slapping waves and clear-blue waters made for snorkelling flashes across the mind almost simultaneously. Whatever images anyone has, I’m pretty sure they’ll be so immersed that they wished they were down-under right this minute.

Being a marketing student, by far the Australia marketing campaign that I can recall vividly is the song playing 'blue and yellow and pink and green', with awesome images flashing on my TV set. I swear i can sing that song! I am dying to be in Melbourne!!Well, all excitement apart, my best friend, Annabelle is studying in Melbourne. Without a doubt, that is the state that i wish to visit the most, not only to get a taste of her Aussie life there but also to immerse into the various activities the city can provide that is vastly different in Singapore. I'd give you 10 reasons!

FIRSTLY, 'Wicked' is now Melbourne. According to Belle, 'Wicked' is just wicked. Tell me, how can i not watch it. Seriously. I totally adore the Witches of Oz! Oh oh, and Billy Elliot is on now at Her Majesty's Theatre. I wanna dress up and go watch a musical in Melbourne!

SECONDLY, how about the unique Australian "religion" that I simply have to see for myself? The new season of footy just started and I HAVE TO WATCH A MATCH. I simply have to do it! I've already hear Belle sing the Collingwood anthem way too many times, i can actually sing it as well too. Beer, chips, pies, Belle and Collingwood at MCG Stadium on a sunny saturday. What else can i ask for?

THIRDLY, since I'm curbing my quenching thirst to stop online so that i can shop in Melbourne, a visit to Richmond and Bridge Road is a must! Country Road, Witchery, Supre, Dotti, Sports Girl, Cotton On, Portsman, HERE I COME!! Cashiers, go stand by, will you? (:

4. Since we're Singaporeans, we not only shop but we eat. No, we GORGE. I hear about the best pastry that can only be found in Queen Victoria Market (QVM). And since Belle lives just 5 minutes away, the perfect Sunday shall be spent having brunch and shopping at QVM, followed by visiting the Direct Factory Outlet (DFO) at Southern Cross Station, or Bridge Road! And we'll end our day by having italian on Lygon Street. Whichever really.

FIFTH ON THE LIST, the wildlife! I wanna get this close to Koalas and i seriously can't think of anywhere else i can do it except in Australia. Take a road trip, stop by the road, snap a photo with a Koala that is awake and sitting right above your head. HOW COOL IS THAT?

6. How can i miss out nature? Mornington Peninsula has the most beautiful beaches and lavender farms. We can also go strawberry picking!!! Yayy! I hear Sunny Ridge has the sweetest strawberries. OR the Great Ocean Road! That is like a must-visit since the apostles are collapsing very slowly. OR Philip Island with all the penguins coming home at dusk. Oh. did you know that once penguins find a mate, they actually stay with the mate forever.

7. Who goes to Australia and not visit a vineyard? I don't even have to talk about it? These pictures speak a thousand stomachs

8. Since my silly bf isn't buying me flowers (even on Vday, which I said ok), then I'd head to Melbourne's Royal Botanic Gardens to toss me over with their variety of Australian and international flora on the Autumn mood! Omg. Lakes and Swans! OR i'll take a boat ride down the Yarra River along the banks of the city. Well, i've never taken the duck tours in Singapore but i bet rowing a boat will be waay more fun!

9. (which i think might be silly), but its really cool - all the graffiti along the streets on Melbourne. Singapore is so clean and green, you only get to see some illegal and ugly ones. So here's one on Melbourne's streets taken by that Aussie current resident.

Last but not least, my best friend is in Melbourne and i miss her so damn much. She not coming home this year does not help at all.

Writing this makes me feel like i'm already in Melbourne. Nuffnang! Please fly me to Melbourne!!! I wanna experience the endless adventures that Melbourne has to offer with the best company on planet Earth, Belle!

Celebrations in the sky. :)

2009-03-22T13:02:00.001+08:00

Our fruits of labour with our advertising groupmates.
They'd better use our proposed ads next Vday. :)

My ideal duo. After 3 long months. I hope your Xiao bai survives its surgery. Its always a delight to hang out with you. :))

Hello there?

2009-03-17T19:22:00.002+08:00

It feels almost weird typing into this small blogger box again.

haha.

Wow. Before you know it, it's Mid of March.

My trip to Macau and Hongkong was fantastic and memorable.

Enjoyed my stay in Hongkong and new found friends in class.

Did I mention my phone bill just came and it amounted at $128.

Tmd.

I'm beyond broke.

Tuition-less for the past 3 months.

But thinking back, i think i had it better this semseter, though poor but more time for myself, family, friends and Zj. So i guess its still worth it?

Its almost the end of the semester in about 4 weeks.

With 1 week to study week, my god.

3 weeks!?!

Lucky me, 2 exams this time round.

I get all the freedom i want on 14th Apr 09.

Feel very free to date me out. :)

So it has been a mad rush for me since I got back till now.

Am still working on the freaking slides for that old bitch that we are supposed to present to.

Oh yes!

I got my internship at Shiseido too.

Excited! Despite the almost demeaning pay, i hope i get to learn a great deal and plant a opportunity to work there upon graduation.

Internship commences 27th Apr 09. :)

I need a dose of my drama daily.

I heart gossip girl and Grey's.

Been in having an affair with GG so much, I asked Zj to not talk to me for the last 10 mins of the show. haha!

So Okay, here's the short update. no more talking now.

XOXO,

Gossip Girl Addict.

Sunday & Maids

2009-01-30T16:29:00.000+08:00

21st jan:

Am back blogging on the train.

Not watching Grey's this time cause I have complete till where I am left with waiting for the new episode.

Last Sunday I had to head back school. On the way there, I felt worse than maids!

They were all chattering on the train while I was making my way to campus.

I mean even they are entitled off days. And me?

Oh wells. Fine.

Am frantically looking for a tuition kid no that I "fired" my last.

I NEED $$$!!

On the other hand, one thing happy about?

Sat I am going to do my nails with cher & xh!

Den reunion dinner on Sat and then sun too!

Woot.

Best? NO sch over the long weekend!

Yar. Then comes make up lesson on the 31st Jan, it’s a Sat (till 7pm!) seriously.

Belle coincidentally was on the same train with me yesterday.

In her very slight attempt to lose weight, we walked home from the interchange.

She's going back in Early Feb, oh god.

That's like so soon.

I barely got enough of her.

This time that she is going back, I don’t even know when I will get to see her again.

Belle: yeps, belated bday celebration + tanning + club + stay overs + my bday present (u kuku) before you go.

Sigh.

Pending tasks:

Promo Project
APB minor project
Internship Applications
Doing my personal portfolio
Exchange application. (lots of research)

2009 and Campus Welcome.

2009-01-15T00:05:00.004+08:00

It is exactly a month from my last update.
Yeps. I'm so lazy to blog these days. haha.

Before i logged on i started blog hopping, as usual i Missed out quite a bit.
haha. And I Updated my 'soft' memory of things.
I missed Kailing.
Her korean trip seem soooo fun! haha.

Btw, here are some very over due pictures.
Alright so how was my holidays?
I was working at Hasbro (Lena's workplace) as a so-call intern/temp staff.

In the World of toys, it has been fun, tiring, lazy and mostly busy.
But really I think i can see myself doing such work when i graduate, that is if i can find smth like this to begin with.

Thinking of an exhchange in my last semester (next sem - yayy!) in Taiwan.
PLease pray for me that i get it!
I'm so dying to go!

Oh yes and i chopped my hair off again. haha.
SO the pictures that you see here are not exactly how i look anymore.
I spent my NYE watching the fireworks from afar at Marina Barrage area.

The best part of December 2008 is probably Zoukout 2008.
My very first Zoukout.
One of a kind Experience. :)
Will consider going there again next year. :)

Sch's hitting into week 2 now and it sucks.
Still can't assimilate.
This Afternoon i went back to TP with some TP turned SMU peeps.
Had fun reminiscing and also complaining about our current campus.
Truth to be told, i really still missed TP and still proud to be part of it till date.

Oh wells, we're almost done with the hard part of SMU now.
Keep telling myself all will be over so soon.

I'm not MIA!

2008-12-15T00:12:00.002+08:00

Hello World,

Only reason why i haven been updating was due to work + SICS.
My president is gone for OCIP so i'm taking over almost everything, going back to school last 2 weeks at least 3times.
Argh.

This is no holiday.
Am wokring at Hasbro now (lena's office.)
Quite liking things there but am really tired aft the entire day's work and if i go back to sch aft that, i'd only get home about 11ish and next day i have to wake up at 645am.
:(

I went zoukout last night. Unique experience (minus that fucktard that tried to get fresh.)
Update again!
gtg slp!

BYE!

Almost the end.

2008-11-11T13:03:00.003+08:00

It's the type of week in school where sometimes you don't even remember what your name is.
Irresponsible groupmates are a serious no-no at such times.
Nonetheless, i have two of them in my team.
The project work is incredibly intensive and seriously i think they deserve nothing.
Today was the due date for everything.

And yesterday when i informed them about the meeting (which is so not surprising)
Asshole 1: "huh? meet for what? since when there was a meeting?"
Asshole 2: " I really have no time. i need to rush back home to do my finance ppt that is due tmrw also".

ME and the other two poor souls ended up leaving school at 12.45am.
When i got home i could barely feel my legs. I got up at 645am and i only lie on my bed to sleep at 2am.
I can't understand why these people are so selfish.
I told them off yesterday.
But i still think they are fucking irritating, i had to screw the up before i explode.

THey din do shit.
wanna See what one arsehole wrote in the report?
Here is: (check out bold words)

Frequent meetings were held to review project progress and overall statues of project with full attendance by all group members. (fucking rubbish, they have never attended ANY single meetings) Every member was assigned with specific tasks and to follow up on tasks with our best efforts. (they were only expected to write this fucking report which turned out to be 14 pages of rubbish that i edited and rewritten from page one and still can write this shit out to hand up) A project proposal was completed with a combined group effort in planning, designing of the designated system. Every member was involved in planning, designing of the proto of the system. (bloody liar)

3 good souls (names are removed to ensure privacy) were in charge of the overall implementation and ongoing project development to ensure project phase requirements are completed and utilizing of VBA. Asshole 1 and Asshole 2 were in charge of collection of data and testing of the system in user’s perspective by providing constructive feedbacks regarding any improvement to the system. (that is antoher lie, God pls punish her today - they have never ever touched the system.) Lastly, the final report was prepared by Asshole 1 and Asshole 2 while 3 good souls ensure adherence of the report’s content to the meet the report requirements.(Rubbish again, the entire report was full of this kind of rubbish that she wrote, she doesn't even know what the system really does) An update of the project progress to the client is represented by one good soul, this is to inform the current accomplishment and overall status.

This is just one small chunk of words, as you can see from a para of 8 sentences only 2 were correct and truthful. This has got to be the worst report i have ever seen in my life so far, worse than those laggards back in tp, super serious! Asshole 2 got really worries after I talked some sense into him and started becoming desperate, keep offering to help us do formatting (which is like duh? when i edit i make sure the formatting is done as well) even offered to send us home from school ytd. wth.

Argh. No wonder i get older. Freak tired.

The other day my laptop charger got burnt and smoke started seeping out from the duct tape that i taped to the exposed wires. wth. Bought a compatible one that cost almost 50.
I hope santa brings me a new laptop. haha. I am such a Wishful kuku.

Went Avenue Q last saturday, enjoyed every single cent i paid. The puppets are really adorable and hilarious.
Baby says the paper mentioned that they practiced with the puppets till their fingers grew blisters.
But they were fantastic.
:))

Finding joy out of work.

2008-10-24T09:20:00.002+08:00

While doing a brochure for my PR project, I sourced for some children pictures
because the company that I was supposed to be PR-ing for is a children clothing company.
So I thought Benetton would be a good choice to see how they talk about their products and see some adorable pictures.
Look what i found!!

This is from google images!

From here on, pictures courtesy of United Colours of Benetton. :)

Check out her eye lashes!

So happy & Innocent!

He has got to be a model when he grows older! Handsome!

These are my top 3 favourites.
OMG. They are sooooooooo cuteeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!

Graduation?

2008-10-17T09:43:00.003+08:00

Nuffnang dropped an emailer for the gala premier of high school musical competition.
I didn't catch both previous ones, so I won't go ahead with the competition.
Nonetheless, they mentioned something about Sharing your graduation experiences (if you have already gone through it!) or tell us what your expected graduation would be like!

When I graduated in TP, I didn't really do anything spectacular.
I've always thought of a graduation trip though but most of the time, just mere broke or people just don't really wanna do it together.
Shortly, I went to work at Starhub and here I am at SMU.

Now that most of my TP friends have graduated and are working now.
They are mostly financially sufficient and they'd make their own travel plans.
They come back with cute and nice gifts for me.
:)

I can't wait for my graduation here too.
I can't care much about my gpa anymore since it suck that much already.
Sometimes its just mere torturous to be here.
I wish to have that same amount of spending power, having a less homework/ highly stressed environment / exams (even on birthdays) and burnt weekends.

But I know this convocation is just gonna be one of the happiest times in my life like O levels result collection day. I wish there would be some major party with my SMU friends and this time make the graduation trip possible. For many of them $$ isn't a problem at all and they'd graduating later. But I hope this is really going to happen.

1st time when I wore a graduation cap was in those PAP graduation as a kid.
This time I'd be walking into the halls of Suntec City convention hall with a graduation cap and gown. Oh man. I'd carry that grin from ear to ear.
I want a mini graduation bear in my arms and see my parents being so proud of me.

Mega picture taking surely will take place.
I want a picture of my smu peers doing a final Smu jump. :)
And from there, I'd write a new chapter of life and join my fellow peers in the working world.

Between Shock, Life and Death.

2008-10-16T20:09:00.007+08:00

Yesterday I had one of the longest shock that I couldn't recover from lunch.
The after subject email addressed after the shock was 'Indigestion'. haha!
Nonetheless, I had fun during lunch.
We were discussing about how us and our friends grew older.
The taboo topic of sex wasn't that taboo when we were die hard fans of Sex and the City.

We have friends who would save themselves for marriage,
some who would succumb to temptations and others who just purely enjoy the "process".
I do have friends who are promiscuous that doesn't mean I love them any lesser.
Yet, i believe many who don't agree with what they are doing, they gradually drift these friends away or their friendship ends a way or another.

I don't agree at times too but I still feel it's their freedom of choice.
Who are we exactly to judge?
Of course, we have our own value system and certain things is a "Yes, we can do this" and "this is unquestionably wrong."
But when it comes to another emotional level, such boundaries get blurred.
People just change their minds, their hearts and their decisions.
I probably do judge inside me as well but I choose to value my friendship in a different way.

They may do what others think is ~~being a bitch~~ bullshit and ~~bastard~~ absurd.
But isn't it how the same friend is able to be there for you when you need her/him,
giving you the best company that he/she can, lending you an ear when you need it and just bring your friend (in your valued ways) that matters more?
To me, that indeed mattered more.
She/he can be a shitty partner but if she "delivers (or even above expectations)" perfectly in what you need in your "friend scope", isn't that sufficient to cover her/his flaws when it comes to other relationships?
Others might have differing views but I choose to firmly still believe in this.

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Today, I attended the official 2nd funeral in my life.
Why I labeled it official because in my younger days I was still oblivious about what is going on about funerals and often accompanied with my parents.
My parents often forbade me to attend such functions as well.
(of course not that I am dying to go,
but I remembered wanting to go for Na's uncle's Funeral.
But according to my parents' religious beliefs, it was a must to not attend such functions in that particular year.)

Today, for the 2nd time I wasn't accompanied by my parents.
That particular year was not this year.
I'm in the eyes of the law, no longer a minority, I'm a supposed adult.
Strengthen by my own beliefs and coated with my own emotional and cognitive abilities.

When I saw my own sister in the traditional mourning gown I cant help but to feel a deepened type of sadness that is indescribable. Although I was not close to the deceased but I have definitely seen her a couple of times, greeted her and visited her at the hospital. And now, she has left.
When I saw the look on all their faces today, I could not hold any of my tears back either.
As we walked away, we each gave her a piece of our land sending her to her new belonging.
We boarded the bus back in a heavy rain with heavy hearts.

May you rest in peace, wherever you are.

The not very recess type of break.

2008-10-09T22:16:00.003+08:00

When Zj told me today he saw his friend's MSN nick was "Concealer is my best friend",
I thought that sounded just right for me as well.
I Thank God it is not for pimply issues but the Zouk looking dark rings imprinted on my drained face each day.

The lack of sleep is far worse than back in TP days.
It's killing me inside so much that I decided to take a break for tmrw morning's visit.
Mummy's going for check up tmrw evening so no home cooked dinner for me tmrw.
It has been a week since I last dine in my cozy home.

This so called recess week isn't at all rest.
Everyday of the week has been packed nothing less than anything to do with school.
Projects, meetings, field trips, retreat/trainings, elections, etc.
Speaking of which, yours truly has been elected to be the Vice President of SICS for the special interest clubs. To help refresh your memory: SICS = Special interest and Community service sodality.
If you haven been a constant reader here, you would kinda remember that was the other cca that i was in apart from Gradtour. ;)
So yes, the official term of office starts in Jan 2009 and ends Dec 2009.

Its filled with apprehension and anticipation i would say.
They tried to persuade me in running for president but I chose not to.
I choose more time to accompany my family, friends and myself. :)

Alrighty, I'd head back to my sexual individual assignment.
For a preview of what my assignment is about, click here.

When i smile again.

2008-10-03T15:36:00.002+08:00

I don't know how it became so bad.
But it was a challenge every single day.
Mind over body.

The thesaurus is exhausted for the word weary and tired.
Everyday my scheduler is filled with to do lists and due dates.
I don't know how long more i can take on but today is the supposed day to officially take a break.
Despite tuition assignments tmrw, I am going to treat myself to smth nice.
Haven't really decided on that yet.

I am still counting down to 2030, where i can be part of a birthday celebration
and I get to see ZJ.
He has been so considerate and thoughtful lately especially with all these shit I have been going thru lately.
Thank you baby.

Hence, I didn't write here for so long.
I am still having 2 tuition kids.
Pri 6 boy is having his PSLE, he sms me saying "woots. quite easy lei."
hahaha. And yesterday when i saw him for final tuition for English
he went like "Can you don't go please. I very scared." hahaha!
He really look like jack neo's son in i'm not stupid.

Anyhows, there is still Miss little whatever, Lorraine who is always on my nerves.
And her exam is about 3-4 weeks.
That day in her science assessment a question asked "What are 2 ways to prevent bacteria from entering our body?"
And she said, "I don't know! Tell me the answer (Very typical answer from her)."
Me: "Think first can? (typical reply)
Lorraine: "Errr... Put powder?"
me: "Arr!? Burst out laughing*"

You know how kids will powder themselves up like muah chee with peanuts.
Its hilarious when i saw that innocent face saying that.
In fact, in her world, that made a lot of sense and i can see why is that so when i always see the
heavily powdered neck after shower.
Hmmm.. She must be bacteria-free in that sense then.
hahaha!

I can't wait for the test to end!
I need and want my life back.
I haven seen or talk to my close friends for like 2 months and running.
I miss them heaps.

Ok. Back to revision.
Some sort.
hehe.

Stressed?

2008-09-19T11:08:00.000+08:00

Ping's bonkers webcam.
When we went a little crazy. haha!

Hate School!
The week that i dread is approaching!

Thai Trip #2

2008-09-10T18:45:00.002+08:00

Thai Trip #1

2008-09-10T18:43:00.001+08:00

Fuck you, Stats.

2008-09-10T16:55:00.004+08:00

The long intervals of updates can only be justified by mere exhaustion from school (lessons & cca) & tuition.

Once again, I am only typing this because i am sitting in a uber lousy class of Market Research. I am clueless to how he can go on and on about Statistics instead of teaching us any other stuffs. My good friend from school calls him a Bast**d. haha.

GradTour is nearing very soon.
Miss lala is right, despite all these shit i am going thru for this.
I can use them in my resume in future.

:)

Yes athey! Bangkok Pictures are in the midst of the collage and they are done now.
TADA!

I used up all the time to do the collages. Hence, this short post.

Till, the next lesson.

Ps: i have chopped off my hair a month ago. and i have put on about 4kg.
Feel like fainting as i type that out.

zooming into week 2.

2008-08-27T15:59:00.004+08:00

We're into week 2 , before we know it.
Last weekend ended with spectacular display of fireworks @ marina.
I'm still very thrilled looking at them.

:)

Zj got the tickets online from some guy so we land up paying a little more.
Its was rainy, so dampened the mood a little.
But when they lighted up the gloomy sky, it lighted up all our hearts.
sparkle and dazzle! (Think: ugly betty)
Sadly, it was only for like 15 mins?

School has been so far not very kind.
Loads of shit.
Come week 7 - that's where i will be digging my grave.
Lazy to upload pictures.

haha.
In Market Research Class now.
Cant seem to listen to all that he is saying.
And i just learn that one of my prof is gay.
OMG.

Ping: Make a guess! :D

From summer and time lag. :)

2008-08-12T17:30:00.003+08:00

Hello everyone,

Sorry for MIA-ing for so long.
haha.
I'm just pure lazy right to my bones to blog.
Cause days of freedom is extremely limited till hell gates of SMU opens again.
This time, i think i'd be really hectic and might probably collapse in school or smth.
Thinking of it makes my head spin.

Okay.
From the last.
The goodbye was for Bangkok.
I'm back with tons of shorts, bags and shoes. haha.
Very happy and poorer girl now.
came back and realised its true that Miss Lala said the last time when she went to the same place, she end up spending more on others and her friends.
Likewise, for me.

Nonetheless, the trip was still fun and fulfilling. ;)

Not long after, it was All the leos' birthday.
1st Up was dearest Kailing.
Haven been planning some time with her bf, Ivan.
Managed to surprise her with her fave Mango cake at her place.

- okay that was typed like two weeks ago when i mean to post this post.

SO then, celebrated all the leos' birthdays. Cheryl's @ Hilton and Na's @ Modena.
Then infinite tuitions and cca meetings.
So truth to be told, it felt like there wasn't really a holiday.

And that ended my summer holidays.

back here once i am free again or sitting in a freak boring class. ;)

The day.

2008-07-23T16:45:00.000+08:00

Today is THE day!

Bye Singapore!

My crashing Body.

2008-07-10T20:59:00.008+08:00

My body has decided to give up on me as i have given up on my presence in class today.
Second visit in a week to the School's doctor today.
I wouldn't have gone all the way there if it wasn't for the project meeting.

Yep, you guess it right.
Sore throat, fever and a nasty flu that refuse to retreat.
The scorching sun showed no mercy, one moment all bright and sunny and the next moment it was raining heavily. Triggered my fever while i was heading into the doctor's room.

I thought the previous doctor in school sucked big time.
He prescribed ineffective medication and he even once asked me to get some MLM supplements.
Not from him but he was definitely promoting it.
What kind of doctor is this ?

The current replacement doctor seems older and more experienced.
Thing is, I don't quite understand why he has to stick his hand into my top with the stethoscope
and place them rather near, you know where.
Not that I don't trust his professionalism but I don't see my family doctor doing the same thing.
He does the same thing to my back.
Feeling bit violated. But I think this time i should be able to get well since he replaced the drugs.

Next Thursday marks my final lesson of Strategy.
Can't wait. Sometimes he truly amaze me with how he can go on and on and on for 3 hours non stop and he gets all enthusiastic and dramatic when he speaks.
Communication is mostly one way, everyone else is facebooking, online shopping (Yours truly being guilty), blogging etc, just about anything but listening in class.
Every attempt to listen and follow what he says failed miserably.

It's exhausting having to constantly avoid his eye contact (there's only 12 in the class that can contain 40) and act like you are listening and interested in what he is saying when I was absolutely not. haha.

After some food, medication and sun while walking back to campus, i felt like someone kicked me hard in my stomach and my head was pounding with every step i took.
An expensive cab ride later, i got home and feeling a little better after a short nap on the cab.
Hope tmrw's gonna be better for me and my system.

I met Belle after a long goodbye from Dec.
We went Zouk last Friday with some of her friends..
Our friendship went through a rough patch and i'm glad we survived it.

After we dolled up and ready to party!

In her cosy little room.

And she would do the sweetest things for me.
She sent me an email with this and heart felt messages that made me wanna just hop on the next flight to Melb to find her.

She also sent me another self made card from miles under
while i was having my exams. =)
Came over to my place yesterday with a bottle of herbal tea and accompanied me half the day while i was completing my assignment.
belle: Thank you for all that you do. I truly appreciate you being back in my life too. :)
I know how grades and school can be tormenting for you, trust me i know how that feels esp in my freak campus. Hang in there. hugs tight*

When i have a weekend.

2008-07-01T13:51:00.009+08:00

Whenever I look at my scheduler every single day,
I wished and prayed that the weekend is going to arrive so soon.
Wished that the things that i have written in advance, would miraculously decrease with some fairy God mother's power that it's invisible yet invincible.

So when the weekends do finally arrive , I get to execute the activities I finally can enjoy
without stress, naggings and self indulging.
This weekend, one of my cca, SICS had a retreat.
Of course, proved to me that i could probably had my weekend spent elsewhere that would end my week better.

First of all, it meant special interest
(Cher said its like special school, those disabled school kind. TMD.) and community service sodality. In the nut shell, it's a entity that holds anything that is non arts or sports related CCAs. a student constitutional body that houses ("take care") of special interest and community service clubs.

You might wanna ask me what's special interest clubs anyway?
You'd be amazed at the number of clubs that are established in SMU.
Some in my opinion are of rubbish nature.
To name a few, AstROrdinary (astrology club, just see stars every event), Women connection (connects women to inspire and help one another discover and live their passion. -- NO events from them either. just keep using sports bra as their advertisement, below saying, giving you the support you need).

Oh wells, we have currently 26 clubs under us.
I'm in their events sub-committee.
Coming up with an event (SICS week - SMU record challenge) really soon.
Hopefully will turn out well.

If you are really interested, u can visit here.

So yeap, they are rather rich, planned for a retreat for all of us in Sentosa.
Initially, was quite pleased and looking forward to it.
However, it was bloody tiring. MENTALLY.
It was 85% of the time, meetings and the remaining amount of time was eating.
WTF?!

Check out what answers.com gives you when u search for the meaning of a religious retreat: A period of group withdrawal for prayer, meditation, or study: a religious retreat.
So we are having a CCA retreat, wouldn't it be play, fun, meeting, eat?

NO.
We were having hell of an intensive meeting on planet Earth.
I have never sat in a meeting that lasted 5 hours.
It was so exhausting i could barely remember how to walk back to my room after that.
And by the time when it all ended, we were so overwhelmed with fatigue, what Cafe Del Mar could possibly offer was just dismissed by all of our minds.
(but actually i still wanted to go out, to unwind, unshit all the information overload and unloading through out those fuck meetings.) The entire time you hear A saying "okay, let's not waste time. Let's go back to... " Seriousfuckingly, have a life, A.

Although, through the meetings, some of them gave really funny comments and they played tau pok. But still, we went all the way to Sentosa to sleep and do meetings, why don't we just do it in campus then? The beach, the awesome pool the resort had, luge, beach volley, etc. argh.

Oh wells. enough talking.
Pictures to show you the the other times that we had minimal fun.

The boys. Before we set off.

Elvin. Marketing Director.
The one that din let me into his committee. basket.

Andy and me. The one that took me in instead.
I think events is a better dept to be in after i joined. hur.

Jessica and myself. Photo whores.
People in my school keep saying we look alike.
oh wells.
Perhaps this is why some cheesy pick up lines like
"you look familiar." is being used on me.

Team games.

June. My room mate for the night.
the only 3 estrogen carriers.

3 monkeys. Colin in the center is freak hilarious.

The ones that stayed till Sunday.

Tau Pok, they play.

After the whole shit, the only thing left to look forward was to meet baby and the girls.
Cheryl and Xiaohui.
I haven seen Xiaohui since forever.
So was really delighted when I saw my inbox greeting me with her sms saying "Hey girls, wanna meet this sunday?"

I can't remember when she last send us such a message.
But, thruthfully, I was over the moon.
When I met her once again after a good half a year, we hugged each other so tightly and everything else didn't matter.

She went Taiwan with her family and she got me and Cher pretty hp pouch and a keychain thingy with our names on it.
Cher said maybe it was for us to hang on Xmas trees. haha.

Went Werner's oven.
My meat loaf that tasted like very much missed Luncheon meat.

Cher and Xh had this huge German sausage.
Xh's one had cheese oozing out each time she sliced it. Yuk.

My naughty buddies - Adapted from the photo frame i gave them last Xmas.

Miss Griselda by night, Xiaohui by the day.
I heart you so. Thank you for coming back in my life. :)

Forget about JB?

2008-06-17T13:26:00.005+08:00

2 days ago, i went to Snip Avenue with my sis and mum.
My aunt has told me all about its renowned $4.80 hair cut.
They are now on 50% anniversary sale, hair cut is $2.80 NOW.
Incredible?

So we decided to try it out.
After seeing some really nasty comments on forums,
i decided to just do some hair treatment while
mum wanted to conceal traces of age - white hair.

For her, its a monthly deal. So we decided to go try since all services is half priced.
I'm officially broke for the month, so i decided to give the hair colour a miss
and settle for a hair treatment (it won't go too wrong, isn't it?)

It's $28 for a mud spa thingy.
Miss lala and i decided for that.
The procedures?
See pictures!

Miss lala's solo expression is hilarious.
I decided a look like a Pie maker.

Mummy dearest, is still young in our hearts.

Fathers' Day. For my Daddy.

He taught me to be a honest person.
To be a strong girl and the spirit of perseverance.
To handle stress.
To learn the meaning of being pampered by a daddy.
To know how important this family is to me.
To understand how much he loves me and this family.

Appreciating how he can just step in my room smiling,
telling me "take it easy" for school or "how are you today?".

Despite all the different waves of family woes or happiness
that we experienced, I'm still proud of him as my dad
and i do adore him. :))

My bestie and Conventional diary.

2008-06-12T12:45:00.010+08:00

Yesterday must been the highlight of the week, although it hasn't end.
Because i got to see my best friend from BNSS again, her name is Kailing.
For those who are closer would have know who is she or heard about her.

We go a long way back, since i was 13.
When i almost made it to TAF club, despite entering that F**k club
thereafter, she never really left my side.
She was a really quiet girl had uber long, straight and silky hair
and i look like an insane woman talking and laughing a crazy lot next to her.

Guess what, my dear? I have pictures of us those days! waha.
I don really like the idea of it being here either, but i still want to post. hur.
And doing a time check, our friendship 'sailed' for 9 years till date.
She's right, it isn't gonna end. (we both know.)

She says I'm a Cassanova when it comes to having multiple best friends.
Truth is, i told her i do have many good friends,
but the best friends that i can really count on
are those i can count with my fingers only on a hand.
KL:to others you might be other numbers, but when it comes to friends, u're my #1 because you are one friend that i know the longest and am still close to. :)

Despite that angry post on friendship the other day, i know a friend like her is gonna be kept throughout different life stages.
She's gonna be with me when i study like crap while she work hard at her job,
when i graduate and we travel the world together,
when we both get married to The One,
when we both get to have children,
when we both get old and grey and still catching up old times.

One who can live life together with me as a friend,
just listening to my woes/bitching,
tell me/her everything without any fears,
calls you immediately when she sensed something is wrong from my sms (just like today ;) ),
understands how hard i work for school and my kind of person,
sensitive to my feelings,
tells you right in the face "of course, i care for you, you're my best friend."
making everything else seem easier to bear even i don't see her very often. (ok we are working on a meeting at least once a month thingy. hee.)

I know. She'd be there. :)
We share from scrunchies, to PE tshirts
to how our bra cups grow to deep secrets we bury in our hearts.
I love spending every minute when i get to meet her.
Despite however shock she gets when i reveal my secrets to her,
she'd always find a way to tell me its okay and that she doesn't judge me at all.
I love her for that. =)

She made this collage last night after we left for home.
I'd made her one when i get those pictures from her. :))

My bestie. With new kuku fringe she calls it.
Sweet like a lolly!

Yea. Me and panda fetish. Its v nice to hug these fellas.
and F***king 70 bucks!
Nuts!

Us on e escalator. :)

Photostickers that we liked so freak much last time.

Yes, 2003 as printed on the card print.
Its called Lovegetty machine, issit not?
i told u she had really long hair, right?

Those BNSS girls.
Till date, only KL stood by the test of time out of the 14.
But tmrw, i'm gonna see few of them
cause the one on the top extreme left (Yuli)
is coming back from Aussie. (so is Belle. =D )

We went Art Box at TM yesterday, we got stuck there for damn long
cause like me she wanted to buy a scheduler for next year (i got mine some time back alr)
and those cutey notebooks. While myself, i wanted to get a diary as well.
Oh yes, those freaking pandas in the shop are darn lovable, please!
I told the sales girl, her shop is a jinx to my bank account.

When i say diary, i meant literally life journal kind of diary,
those conventional take-a-book-out-every-night-and-write kind.
Offline blog.
Cause there are many times i want to blog very much but its just to tedious to get into mum's room switch on the modem, switch on the computer, wait for it to start up and load blogger, log in and type a whole chunk and then off the computer, wait for it to shut down, off the main switch (dad's save electricity scheme) go into mum's room and off the modem's main switch again.

Hell, this process is alr too long for words, what more do it every night or day?
And the thing about blog is, you know people read and of course you want nuffnang to know.
But those diaries are those u can really write what you want, think or feel inside.
Not that i am not truthful about what i say here. But you know. The personal space of speech.
I still am going to blog though. :)

Other reason why i decided to get a diary is because the other day while i was doing the holidays-must-pack-room regime, i found my handwritten diaries from 1999 to 2002 or 2003 can;t remember. And i started this blog in 2005. 2004 was a bad bad year, mummy says.
Yea. Mainly household issues and family woes, that is.

So while reading those old diaries, i laughed so hard my tummy ached.
Those secondary and primary school days, the liaox (omfg)
and silly things you thought matter the world to you, you write.
Big or small issues, you print it on paper.
It's hilarious.
I even wrote, "If i die one day, Stella (my sis) will get to read this diary."
LOL!
But in 2008, i decided to let her read still,
she had the same laughter at my language, spelling errors
and very much the sole content. hahah!
It's interesting and delightful to know how you have eventually grow up
and those books meant childhood memories as well.

Then on, i decided, i will write again.
Daily a not, depends on my fatigue level.
But i will write the conventional diaries again.

The chosen diary for Year 2008
after a lot of persuasion from KL (because she's the pink and sweet girl but i am so not.)
and picked from at least 5 other potential ones that i wanted from that shop.

A little pricey for a diary
but its printed every freak page and in different colours.

P.s: Kailing started blogging to the world to see too, she's on my links on your left!

Holidays and play days.

2008-06-10T12:57:00.011+08:00

Last week was fun packed week.
Got to meet up many people and had loads of fun catching up. :)

Let's start off with the girlies.
Athey and Ru.
We finally met up after all our crappy summer courses.
Athey wasn't feeling too well.
So we spent time talking and eating non stop at 2 different places - The Big O and Sakura.
:)

The chocolate breast. Inside: Fresh blended durian. F-delicious.

Baileys Cheesecake.
Can't really taste the baileys, think its the durian's fault. But i don't mind.

Typical Ru's creation. The cutesy type. haha.
I like the picture with her though! :)
Ru: rmbr to send the rest of the pictures ay!

The girls that i had a brilliant time working together
and we do produce a high degree of standard of work.

The other gathering was with the greatly missed Hubbers.
We decided to go to WeiJia's house to swim.
The new condo at Bayshore. Its called coasta del sol (if i am not wrong).
The swimming pool was fantastic.
Plus many ang moh babies. Very very adorable.
Best part?
They have a separate 4m diving pool with 3 different levels of diving board!

I had such a great time with them.
Their company are just fabulous.
We had Carl's Jr after that and went a beach stroll then decided to Kbox @ marina.
Puts a smile on my face still when i think about that day. :)
More pictures with Sam's camera, so i'll upload the next post. :)

Baby and me went back to TP to eat again. :)
This time, biz park! oei! haha.
I missed those crazy freshman cheering times.

HOR fun v tasty HOR.

Na's favourite lunch mate as well: Tom yum soup. :)

Some Pictures of campus during the summer course.

After the DP architects talk. :)

TP marketers persevere!

Since baby completed his exams, so we were left with a few days that we can have our holidays together, before he heads back to work in Nord Bank. :)

We Went to changi beach after a very filled tummy from steamboat with his pals.

(Pictures from left): see the warm welcoming light but you don't die, SQ airline over our heads, it is NOT UFO. :)

The latest completed serial?
少年杨家将 (aka: the young yang warriors)
I don't normally watch shows that are in donkey years setting.
But I got so addicted to this.
Perhaps i had that sense of relativity, since i'm a Yang too.

The show made me laugh and cried like a little girl.
Javien said maybe 500 years ago you belong to that family. haha.
The mummy of the all the warriors is one who is very brave, can cook and fight.
I hope to be her one day.
But i don't think i want to give birth to 8 children. haha!

The pretty and brave Yang Mummy.

Its still showing on weekend nights on channel U if i am not wrong.
Brief story:
In the Song Dynasty, the yang family spearhead the entire Song military to protect their country and emperor against their enemies.
Of course there were the bad ones
who is the other right hand man of the emperor- The Pan family.
So Yang Ye (Yang family's father) was a great soldier and he was the general who was uber loyal to the emperor while Pan was the prime minister who was that bugger who distort facts to the emperor and desires for his throne.

The serial went on with each character development with their love lives and family ties.
Pan over and over again making things difficult for them.
At the very end, all 5 men of the Yang family died (including the Dad - general) in war,
leaving 2 other brothers, all the sister in laws and the youngest sister alive.

The general and his 2 children in the battle.

The 2 other brothers then reformed the military and had another battle with their enemies. The mother and sisters in law trained into great soldiers and enter the battle field together with the rest of the army against their enemies. (they were at the front line, mind you.)
I like their armour. Like samurai. :)
So yeps. The sequel's 杨门女将 (The female Yang warriors/ heroines)
where they continue to safeguard their country after all their husbands eventually die.

Before i going into that, I'm watching sex and the city season 2. :D
Will complete the entire 6 seasons by the time school officially opens again.

Wow. Britain's really got talent

2008-06-04T16:02:00.001+08:00

Chanced upon this when i was going through my facebook. It's entertaining! haha.

Updates coming up. Loads of pictures. :)

Salvation salvation salvation salvation is FREE!!!

2008-05-30T13:42:00.010+08:00

Salvation - The Cranberries

hee
yep. That's the feeling when you complete your exams. (read blog's title)
I guess i gave my best shot at it.

Indiana Jones up tonight for me. hur.
That old guy, better show me some good stuff.
I've seen reviews of it being a 4star material.

Some post mothers' day peeks.
We decided to cook for our mummy dearest on this special day as her husband is outta town. The usual her forbids us from the kitchen 'cause she has this thing for cleanliness. Perhaps that is one reason why Miss lala and me aren't really good cooks cause she always says "SHOO! out you go! ur footprints of these oil stains are gonna be all over the house. gogogogogo!!"

But she's a great cook! I wanna learn! When we grew a little older, she starts allowing us to be her little apprentice. Chop garlic, chilli, pluck tau kay, etc. haha. I want to be able to cook for my family in future too.

So anyways, it was me, miss lala, javien and some of their closer friends to come to potluck.
Me, Miss lala, Javien cooking for the day.

Shar's Vietnamese Spring roll. yum!

Miss lala's turkish delight - Potato, cheese and many nice stuffs (like subway in potato!)

TADA, the attendees and food! Other potluck items: Whole roasted chicken and sushi

Not at home now, so can't upload the picture of Javien's gong bao prawn.
Turns out very yummy too!
Today is a happy day too.
Ask me why ask me why?

Because i get to go back to TP to makan!
HAHA!

Target location today: Mensa 2!

"Aunty, soft shell crab bento set ONE!"

Beloved Chicken salad!

After missing 2 years, baby told me this garlic bread is existent since salad bar opened.
BAHH! Dunk it in very rick mushroom soup. HEAVEN!!!

Crispy Chicken cutlet. heh.

Feasting all of these under SGD$15/-
Whistles*
baby insisted the desert stall is good. I beg to differ.
he says durian ice's good. U can try the next time.
Today ran out of it, he had red ruby. (just doesn't appeal to me.)
End result: finished every bit of the food! every bit!
宁可杀错也不可放过！！Heh!

Lunch crowd Q! lucky us, we went earlier.

2 very happy, satisfied and big belly individuals after the meal!

I'm shifting house by this year.
Still feeling gloomy about it.
BAH!
But if there is really financial benefits for my parents i really don't mind.
Still, i already feel so attached to the current house.

Some final glimpse of my home sweet home and for those who haven't visit me yet (pls do)..

my dad says i'm crazy taking these pictures, say i act as housing agent. ahhaa.
I decided not to publish my parent's and Miss lala's room otherwise i might consider myself invading others' privacy. hee. You can come see for yourself. :))

"When u enter the house" view.

Shoes here place. There is a giant coca cola bottle where there is over a thousand lucky stars - a collaborative effort from my family. =)

Our literal Living Room.

Bar counter and dinning room. =)

My little cozy corner.

My work space in my corner.

i don't wanna bid it goodbye somehow. =S
A bus stop for all kinds of buses and routes to transport me to bedok, pasir ris, simei, even downtown.
Stone throw away to 24hr mac, kfc, pizza hut, watsons, food, etc. many many small spots for you to spend $$!

No appropriate title.

2008-05-27T13:27:00.012+08:00

How do you like my new blog skin?
Spend quite some time on it. =)

Over the weekend was fun!
Went to Mt Faber and Marina South Pier again.
Mum said the last time she visited Mt faber was back in daddy and her dating days.
Awww.

Lays and can drinks with great breeze.

Mt Faber!

i heart him!

They heart each other.

The still newly weds - i think.

ET eyes!

Standby.. Boom!

Boobies!

Sunday morning when baby and me head out for breakfast @siglap,
spotted this really cute boy.

You'll see him every 50m smiling at you.
1st time seeing some one so happy strapped aye.
He's such a cutie!

Pictures of the scrapbook i made for the anniversary.

M&Ms milk chocolate melts in your mouth not in your hands. hehheh

Exams on this thursday, i have no clue why am i not in the least bit anxious or anything.
Open lap top instead of open book, but i guess it doesn't really matter.
I did those so called electronic notes so that i can refer.
2 hours for 4 essay questions.
Hmm... seems like i am gonna be little pressed for time.

Okay, gtg back for some stupid meeting in school.

When we mark 365 days of being together.

2008-05-20T17:42:00.006+08:00

One year since I labeled myself in a relationship.
One year since I shared my tears, fears and joy with someone like this.
One year since I found someone who could love me this way.
One year since I grown more mature as a female.

I don’t have to spell out everything he or I did for each other.
We know it all.
I’m happy that I made that choice a year ago.

i wanna thank Ping and Eileen (arh... yes and Val) that made all of these possible.

We celebrated that special day at Turqoise Room.
Very cosy and sweet place.
Had some nice flowers surprise.

We went to Haw Par Villa too!
I was there when I was in curly sweaty hair, holding a pink water bottle and a short frame for a 6 year old maybe?
Back then, I never knew what those things meant.

Chinese hertitage.
Courts of Hell.
Monkey Gods and other gods.
They make sense now.
Haha.

I swear that prosti looks damn gross.

10 courts of hell. Click to see captions. Took damn long to do this. ha!

Interesting trip there.

Perhaps i won't return till 10 years later when i hit the other stage of life.
Oh yes, those scary plunging water rides are gone.
Though i think i would have gave it a shot when i'm there.
Deep down I'm still a scary cat la. hahah.
Will scream my arse off.

Suddenly thought of Gmax, shivers*
That one i think my shit will fly all over the place in Clarke Quay
if i went up, screaming my head off.

@ Turquoise Room.

We were quite clever with directions that day with the help of maps and self discovery.
Went vivocity that is bout 15 mins away from Turquoise Room.
Made a scrapbook for him. But i hadn't take pictures of it.
Will post it on the next post. :))

My summer term is coming to an end.
Very happy about it.
Open book exams doubles the happiness.
I hope i can get to score for this subject.

Met Kat after a long time to head back to TP for lunch.
Feels good getting to see and talk to her again
while munching on our favourite delights from school.
Kat: Do take care of urself with all that harsh training. I know u can accomplish that mission but your health should be of utmost importance. hugs*

I miss Athey and Ru.
Haven seen them since the term ended.
From what i heard, their summer module is murderous.
Lucky me because i wanted to do that module initially.
They are two girls that i really love working with.
We work, bitch, boyfren-talks, hang out all together with work done and much fun! =)
Athey & Ru: Hang in there! 1 more week and we can pop that "champagne". haha!

Spoke to Eileen dory over the weekend too.
Seems like the world of BNSS has many that are binding wedding knots.
Some even holding their babies in their arms already.
Oh my.
I don't see myself in their shoes till the next 4years.
Others done with their degrees (arr. i still have 1.5 years to go?!?) mostly in Aussie, seeing their pictures really makes me envious. Damn it!
What to do? i'm a bloody poor bloke.

Saving up every month like a thrifty aunty for Thailand.
Note to self: Its gonna be worth it. Gonna be.
Baby booked the accommodation and air tickets as my anniversary present.
Thank you don't seem to be enough, sweetie! XD
So happy that i get to leave this sickening scorching island for awhile.
Not that its gonna be any cooler there but shopping eases everything else. hahaha!!

Reading newspaper these days are saddening too.
Earthquakes, cyclones, etc.
Every picture illustrated ultimate cruelness of reality, forsaken families and bereaved people.
The news flash i watched the other day was on the site where children are deeply tramatised, parents constant screaming for their children buried in the debris.
It gripped my heart seeing that.

I can't imagine myself being that poor soul that lost all his family members (10 of them), leaving him the only survivor. He can't take revenge on nature either. I'd just kill myself if i'm him.
Too much to take when u're the only one left alone in the world.

Gonna go prep for gym now.
Having meeting later to show some logos i made.
You guys can take a peek too!

Definition of friends, please?

2008-05-08T15:04:00.005+08:00

Why do I see myself tagged into a picture that belongs to an album named sweet hearts? If you still took us as sweethearts, why was it the last time I saw you was in November 2007? If you still cared, why haven’t I got any text from you over these months? You were always busy, always with the “ok nvm. Another time.” When is s your another time then? We are already exhausted from time and again your rejection to all proposed meet ups. Be it work, relationship, school or family – we have them too. Why can we make the effort to meet up and yet you don’t. Oh yes, perhaps you do. I see you pictures smiling all so happily in those pictures in bikini and in Sentosa. Just that the other people in your pictures are never us.

Friends. We meet them, love them, hug them, laugh and cry with them, we hate them. Hate them for coming into our lives and making us happier; create that bond that you never even want to break, be there for them whenever they needed someone and think of them so very often. Yet they take you for granted. Call you only when they need help, meet you up when they have no more plans or friends, last minute notifications and they expect you to come, expect us to chat with you only when you are free and not the other way around. Forsake you when they meet someone new as a bf/gf in their lives – or even humiliate you when you don’t deserve a bit.

Put it into crude terms, yes, friends are there for you to make use of. But really, there are times that you show you truly care and love us. Did you? I missed you nonetheless. I can’t help thinking periodically if your job is doing better and if everything at home is fine for you, etc. Then, I bet you don’t think the same way for me. Or maybe you would, when you are absolutely free.

Facebook has an application that sells friends, don’t they? I refuse to add them because it’s retarded and all my friends are priceless. No amount of money can make me sell them. I guess I should think again. Some friends that I place high regards for should be sold to someone else who has a bigger heart to hold such tortures they give.

They say you lose friends as you grow old. How true. I can only hold on tightly to those who still grow up with me. There was a time when I was younger I wanted the world to like me. I went around everywhere to make friends and love the pure attention by hearing my name being called when I walk through my campus or workplaces. Childish fool. I’m older now. I only wish for those whom grew up with me stay. It isn’t the quantity but the quality of the friends that you make and keep.

Ought to be sleeping now.

2008-05-02T00:17:00.003+08:00

But i am awake now coz i had to check my email and practice my freaking ppt that is due tmrw morning for class. I hate having to squeeze in the morning train. People there has nv seen any seats in their lives they'd RUN to them and push anything/one in their way. Retards.

I caught Ironman earlier. NICE!
I like the that iron man actor, very manly and sparkling eyes. Woot.
Ok. He might be reading this but i bet he agrees.
hahaa. Nonetheless, i love chubby panda.

I got most of my grades back.
I would say i am rather contented?
At least an improvement from last semester.

I miss hanging out with my girly frens and glad i am going see two of them this weekend.Miss lala is in turkey still, i hope that not-so-urban place is enjoyable and i secretly wish she will get me some nice Aladdin oil lamp. hahaha.

My primary school kid is going to china in two weeks time.
And my income is gonna be lost for the month of june.
Please recommend lobang for me.
Saving up for Bkk.
hehehe.
I just cant wait for it.
I've been waiting for so long.

To keep myself busy, i was selected for two posts in two clubs in school.
i decided to expand my network in smu, have more friends and get some more stuffs to built on my resume. :)

Email #1: (which is delayed more than 2.5 weeks, i applied for assistant mkg but also agreed to events if i din get it)
From:SMU Special Interest and Community Service Sodality
Subject: Congratulations

Hello Sharon

Sorry for the delay in contacting you. We are pleased to inform you that you have been selected to be SICS's assistant events director.

We will contact you again for any upcoming events/ projects/ meetings.

Thank you.

Best Regards
SICS

And they only informed me ytd bout the meeting tmr.
I'm sure more or less there are gonna be more meetings at 7pm in sch next sem.

Email #2:
From: Grad tour
Subject: Boarding Pass Attached!

Hi everyone

I like to welcome all of you onboard for the inaugural Grad Tour Organising Committee.

This email is late by 5 days, but that’s because we have many promising candidates that requires careful consideration. (Very sorry!)

Furthermore, a total of 7 people chose the role of Marketing Head! (Is this the in-thing nowadays?)

As such, not every one of you will receive your most preferred post.

However, you are selected because we feel that you can make a meaningful contribution in your post.

Chairperson – Ben Toh

Vice-Chairperson – Joshua Tan

Secretary – Chua Yi Rong

Marketing Head – Sharon Yeo Hwee Ru

IT Head – Leong Zhenyan

Business Liaison Head – Kong Yen Lin

Business Liaison Head – Lee Kuo Ping

Business Liaison Head – Derrick Wee Teck Chye

Sponsorship Head – Yeap Pei Hua

Our first meeting will be on next Monday (5^th May 2008), 7pm.

Venue will be confirmed later.

Warmest Regards,

Ben Toh

Joshua Tan

SEE. told you. always 7pm. But i am glad i made it thru that interview with so many others competing for it and its their 1st main execu com. hur. Or they just don wan APNN?
shrugs.

Ok. going low batt on my lappy.

The battle that we lost.

2008-04-14T17:26:00.007+08:00

Let me begin with my fellow team mate cum close fren's (athena) blog post because it encompasses almost the exact sentiments that i have.

"Fuck (be ready for more effing ahead). We failed our communications research report. Ru messaged me at 2.30am telling me our professor has already graded our report and emailed us our grade, which is 4.5 out of 10. My heart just dropped from my chest to my ankles, and I immediately checked our email while fumbling with the phone to call Shar up. I knew she was sleeping and this call could possibly irritate Zhen Jie as well, but I had to call and let her know the bad news. Yes, the impact was that enormous for this kind of immediacy in the middle of the night during a study break.

FUCKING HELL. First time ever in my life I failed a report. First fucking time, out of 46 projects I have done in my entire life, I FAILED a report. I don't look to well to the presentation grade because his comments were far from positive as well. I can already see my first 'C-' in school. The exam is only 20%, presentation and report constitute 50%, so save the typical comforting to work harder for the finals. Hence the more I don't quite understand why he had to send us our grade a week before the paper: to signpost us to work harder or let us know the bad news asap? WHATEVER, you just failed us without blinking an eye. I'm not that dumb to realise the additional 0.5 mark was out of sympathy.

I was on the line with Ru and Shar for 1 1/2 hours. Three of us are utterly traumatised, wondering what the hell did we do wrong or what did we not do to deserve such a lousy grade. During his consultations, the prof was very encouraging and said he looked forward to seeing our final presentation. The checkpoint with our client was unexpectedly affirmative. It's a nightmare, downright nightmare.

I was intending to hit TWC notes and another seminar of MS when I learnt about the report's tragedy. So what if I repeatedly ask "why" in my head, so what if we spent so much effort in taking down observations at the rurally situated supermarkets and risk being caught taking photographs, so what if the prof just favoured other groups who were researching on explicitly luxury products when luxury should not be defined by consumer segments as mentioned by the client, so fucking what? "

To correct her a little, it was the bloody ang moh client that gave us that awful grade instead of my professor. Nonetheless, 3 of us still knew it's bleak. That fucking blonde bald, on top of everyone, stunned our project progress not once but twice and towards the end at checkpoints he always said "Orh.. interesting, well done, girls, etc."

I jumped out of my bed at 2.30am when she called coz i forgot to change that freak mobile profile and asked her thrice "really?!?!"Its simply unbelievable. i can't come to terms with it nor i had the courage to switch on my modem and read that merciless email at 4am. he even said that we made several spelling and grammar mistakes which is not excusable for a corporate communications student (especially when you could have done a spell check easily). Yes, he is right. Apart from our Chinese surnames, WE DID NOT see ANY FUCKING RED OR GREEN zigzag lines within any of our fucking sentences that we cracked our heads to put into a fuck 2 page report for a FREAK intensive RESEARCH project. I felt accused and frustrated with that 1st sentence of his email. I wished that virus in my lap top was also present in his head so i can bring him to CIT and kill him.

Nevertheless, deep down in my heart i knew its a battle for a lost cause. We'd never win. We will never win a battle with a general deeming his army was already lousy comparing to the rest.
It was clearly evident who he liked and who he didn't. No matter how much we attempt to work towards what he wants.

The sheer amount of effort we put in was indescribable. How many supermarkets we went,the amount of scrutiny that was given to the overwhelming product-oriented supermarkets, the thrashing we got from trying to take pictures when he initially said it was not important and the client in the end say its was important. He just has to screw us up over and over.

His requirements was forever changing. For a moment he wants A and we try to deliver he said we were "Yes. not fully this not fully that." then we worked towards that inadequacy and he now says "no attempt was for this and that (when we tried) , more research on your part would be better." WTF. Our research was stated right there but its just never up to what you want, it's false, insufficient to what you need. then, what the hell is??!?!?! Problem is, we don't even know what exactly you want because only those you favour would match up to your ever changing expectations and requirements.

I feel unjustified and annoyed at how can all our hard work only fetch a fail grade. So what if you will only release the grade after our exams. In our hearts, we already know what you are going to give (since the exercise before the project) to us and to the rest. I realised Kat's group suffered the same fate. Still, I'm just very affected. I can think of some small flaws that can be improved but i know it definitely was not sufficient for a fail.

FUCK. i cannot suppress this.

Lets share with you another crucial aspect of this campus - Class participation.
Recently, campus TV network came up with this.

Class Participation, A Documentary from SMU Campus TV on Vimeo.

The balloons are really funny and cute. In fact, i think its illustrates the emotions and faces that you see in class day in and out. There is this girl that wrote a rather harsh and long blog post bout this video that she has seen. She's an American but migrated to Singapore when she was 4 and she went thru our Singapore education system, formerly in NUS now she's back in the States studying psych.

Reading her really long post, i think some of her thoughts coincides with mine.
Participating in class of course there are pros and cons but i believe the pros are more.
To certain people, is fluff, is bullshit, is not necessary or even just a talk to score points.
Thing is, they think is that easy to just talk in class. It is easy but consider the large class size of bout 40 people wanting to grab that opportunity to speak up against you, your professor could possibly hide "stupid" in front of u and perhaps hearing others in the toilet commenting bout your "talk" being bimbo, extra and fucking irritating. That. Is something the system, students or professors can't capture with the system.

In the documentary, one of the moustachey professor is my year one instructor. He might say "i would never criticise any of my students. There are no stupid answers. It's how the professors facilitate the class discussion, etc." Truth to be told, he is by far the worst professor at doing that.

He completely sucked big time. I can vividly remember him saying "women are stupid" in class. SERIOUSLY?!?! I just was damn pissed with him and he just deters me from further participation especially when he tried to dismiss me few times when i participated. Mind you, its really difficult for a freshman to assimilate into that new 'talking' culture. Moreover, we all come from a background that doesn't foster that kind of 'talk' and it doesn't help when that fucking TA (who happens to me my business camp facilitator) told me in my face, "WHAT the hell is WRONG with you? just participate, its not difficult to speak up in his class." Bloody basket. Just because he is used to this culture doesn't mean he can be that rude to me and make sweeping statements of me not wanting to participate. He didn't ask why. Bloody arsehole.

Ok, that aside. That blogger i was talking about earlier.
Here's something she says that i think makes the same point that i agree bout the system.

"... And yet again, we still hold America as the epitome of progress and whatnot. I don’t get the Singaporean system, quite honestly. We adopt a British education system for the first 12 years and then you except the students to automatically adjust to a system that is so radically and structurally different (read “Sponsored and Contest Mobility and the School System” by Ralph H. Turner if you’re interested in the differences between the American and British systems of education. In short, education is not an independent faction and is generated by the cultural values in any given society) in university. You cannot expect us to be raised in a culture founded on elite values (nitpick with me about this and I swear I will cut you) and then suddenly say ‘okay, we’re all equal and we always need to stay on our toes and be competitive!’ and expect us to change our ideas like that. I feel SMU seems to have meshed these two ideas together, except now you’ve generated a student population that competes with the world while believing themselves to be superior to their own people. Not exactly a good thing to discriminate against your own, sweets... "

She continues challenging the notion of correlation between being vocal and being better employees in future. While maybe there is no data but i guess the reason why they wanted class participation in the system explains why, the industry saw such communication skills lacking in their employees, You can get straight As but if you can't present you ideas to your clients/bosses, you can't maintain positive relationships with fellow colleagues/ potential clients, i guess your life is only gonna get tougher. So for that, i think class participation is still having pros over its cons.

And of course its about quality participation, and not a being a blabbering idiot (who u can instantly spot in class.) who wants to butt in, in every damn sentence the professors tries to say. its really annoying. Think: that Indian girl in my coms class. the whole class hates her without a doubt except her only fellow friend in class.

You think before you speak - at least that is what i do. its true that we can't change a personality trait, however, as we do learn from our FT class, even networking skills can be learned over time. i guess being able to speak up in front of a class and overcoming that fear can too be learned/ abolished. Despite asking for those data she mentioned, i think its pretty obvious that Singaporeans are naturally more conservative being Asians in nature.

Since we were little, we were always told by our parents "I say No means No, don't challenge me and don't ask why." We grow up into adults that are little afraid of voicing out our opinions thinking it maybe too rude or insensitive. But i think its only logical to mature as we grow up, and from it i learn that we CAN voice out but just be tactful. Its always about how you phrase your vocabulary not whether you can say or not.

Additionally, Elaine brought up another point that i think of too.

"... What my experience has taught me is that the professor knows more than you do. That’s the entire purpose of teaching: to impart knowledge. You cannot come into a Psychology class and proclaim, ‘I think video games influences aggression’; you don’t have the data and research knowledge the professor has.

The best professors, I believe, impart to you the knowledge required to make your own decisions. That was the sole reason why I fell in love with my History 331 class. Schools of thought are not new in any medium, and you have to find where you stand in the arena. A professor isn’t supposed to push onto you what he believes, because if he is intelligent enough, he should concede that there are other schools of thought that can explain this better. This is really the entire principal of what psychology is founded upon. There are multiple schools of thought (cognitive, behavioural, biological, psychoanalytical, etc), and all who teach Psych agree that it is a combination of all that possibly influence our behaviour.

If all you’re doing in class is challenging what the professor says, then I think it says something about the professor..... "

I can't tolerate those fucktards who think so highly of themselves (there are many in my school) and they just love to argue they way out whenever they are pointed out that there can be improvements made. Think: the same girl from my coms class, her project group's performance and their Q&A. Downright impolite and irritating.

lastly, i totally agree with her saying "If the boss doesn’t like you, you’re never getting promoted, and if you’re employed by a boss who has been described as Machiavellian or authoritarian, then speaking up is not going to do you a bit of good at all." How true, see my professor who fail me in time to come (refer to 1st paragraph).

Ok. dinner time.
Ethics exams tmrw. arggghhh.

If you wanna read more bout her comments you can go to: http://www.confutatis.org/20080331/class-participation-and-smu/

Too many things, too little time.

2008-03-22T13:02:00.008+08:00

I have heaps of datelines on my neck.

Miss lala's perfect wedding is over, so is my emcee-ing and speech in front of 300 people.

Best part: got a lot of girls crying aft my speech including mummy, of course myself too.

Mummy in nice cheong sam!

And my dad giving me a big pat on my shoulder telling me, "you did a great job last night, daddy's very proud of you."

Pictures are to be up here soon, i think miss lala alr posted some on her facebook.

A few more weeks till i get to the end of the semester and SUMMER holidays, and a thai getaway in JULY. =D

Cant wait cant wait.

Ethics class sucks. toooo boring to be true. (its a saturday, you see)

Classes, assignments, grades, really wo kan kai le (not giving up but just taking things a lot lighter not as its face value..)

Barbie and ken's themed party tonight.
2 weeks later, slogan tee party.
Seems like everyone's 21st are themed parties.

Folks at home all arent in town.
Dad: Golfing in thailand.
Mum, sis, bro-in-law and families: Batam weekend trip .

Sigh.
I once again made personal sacrifices for Fucking campus.
but nvm, i'd get as much done as possible.

Oh yes, this morning i was awaken by the sweetest scent of strawberries and pancakes.
Baby made me breakfast in bed.
Awwww.

i gathered all my strength to open my eyes this morning wondering why was he up before me esp on a weekend. And he came in through the door with a plate like this, sayin "Good morning baby! look!!":

Few weeks before we went to science center.
I would sae it really changed drastically since i was little, ok, i only went there once.
Or maybe its just fascinating for children then.
BUt this time, i had my 1st visit to the omnitheatre and the simulator ride there.
Rather interesting to sit with those kids in the ride and see those exhibits they have there.

They are extremely amused.

Illusionist!

ANd i start having fetish making faces at the camera while he drives. heh heh.

My hair's getting really long. (ok bit random)
i wonder if i should keep it long again. hmm.

oh yes, went to the new timbre with Miss lala bridemaids at the arthouse.
Pretty interesting and nice place to chill.
Cant wait to go there again for Ngak to play.

Oh yes, the star search 1st runner up guy is in this ethics class.
Not too bad presentation skills, oh, some people's an actor.
Only an mere minimal expectation to perform well in front of everyone.

Celebrated mum's and javien's birthday too.
Got her a brilliant chocoholic bday cake. yums!

Did a little test at facebook.
According to the Wedding Algorythm, You Will Marry In: 4 YEARS AND 1 MONTHS
wah haha.
Tht's when i'm 26 (same as miss lala) woot.

Ok. end of lesson. end of blog post. :")

Begin with The End in mind.

2008-03-05T17:15:00.006+08:00

That's the quote my prof shared at the 1st FT class.
I think its kinda applicable in whatever we are all doing, we are all going for THE END.
:)

No, not die, but perhaps, for money, for future, for happiness, retirement, whatever it is, but it reminds me to focus on what i am doing and see the clearer and larger picture so i feel a little more motivated. :))

So here's another long update since mid term tests.
None are returned yet, (ok yes, CB returned and it really turned out quite CB literally, for non marketers, CB = consumer behaviour, and yes the other in dialect, winks*)
So we are left with BP and i won't keep my hopes high (BP= biz processes, in other words, to make you a perfect factory manager, why in the world am i supposed to learn this too??!)

Then, i had endless of project meetings, i still go back to school almost everyday, went for tuition as well.

ALSO:

Went to seek's 21st.

Miss lala's get high on love prize ceremony cum Singapore Flyer ride/ Mid air soleminsation on valentines' day. (a real one of a kind experience, but really i won't pay that price to go onto the sgp flyer again.HEE)

Favourite shot!

Couple, Siblings and sibling's married partners.

"Make a ghost face" in Mandarin, said the photographer

The bride and the sisters. :)

Got to Meet Na and Kailing to catch up. :D

Study for freak ethics mid term (and dunno if i screw the test up)

Went Waikiki (no cameras coz we were afraid they'd get lost but they are in respective team members' camera phones, will upload when i get them.)

Met Belle, helped her pack her luggage and catch up, went clubbing on thurs together with some old frens.

Baby brought me to mad jack's for a weekend dinner. niceee. :)

In between of all these i fell sick, combination from stress, insufficient sleep and i guess i have to admit, heaty food. hehe. Still having a tap nose. :S

Mommy's birthday today, i kinda completed my CB individual assignment buying time till i meet baby and Miss lala so we can makan. I'm going off to get mommy's cake.

Till the next time then! :)

SAVE your weekend Aircon Petition

2008-02-20T11:53:00.001+08:00

SAVE your weekend Aircon Petition <--- click!

SMU students reading this.
Leave your signature now! :D

will be blogging after mid term exams. :)

An adrenaline filled weekend.

2008-01-28T15:56:00.000+08:00

Adrenaline rushed competition @ West Mall on saturday, sends my bro-in-law's and my family a Valentines' Day Singapore Flyer ride with Miss lala and him, re-newing their vows that they just did in a Oct last year. COOL!!

Omg. i'm like how excited already, thinking of what to wear, skipping which lesson all. hahaha!
Pictures are still in the camera, so i'd share pictures in the next post. Oh yes, they are all courtesy from Tian Po. The newly weds got their wedding bands from them and they were qualified to the Get high on love competition. And there were a few round of those couple competition. (You know, those what you think your husband will like, and test husband's knowledge of his wife and the relationship) So yeps, Miss lala and Javien emerged as the winners. With a huge KA- CHING 10,000 dollars Tian Po voucher (in a form of those enormous cheque!) hehe. So happy!!! I was so nervous in the 2nd round where they had to fix a jigsaw puzzle. Armpits flushed with sweat and butterflies in the stomach. hahaha!

So yeps, those Tian Po vouchers are for sale (at a cheaper price of course) coz my sis doesn't really fancy such jewellery stuffs. So let me know if you want to get a proposal ring or a diamond for yourself or gf. :) After which, went for the porridge steamboat, smth new and i enjoyed it but it was a little exp.

Sunday, spend some time on my school work and went CNY shopping with My mum and sis. I got a satin dress ! woot! happy like bird. Coz the initial one i wanted to wear had some malfunctions ( i look uber fat in it, so gotta get a belt or smth) not too sure bout wearing that yet.
And it was my turn to treat my family to a small dinner after getting my tuition fees. :)

Baby got his new phone finally, navigator very sophisticated in terms of the GPS system and we got a matching DA TOU hp sock. haha. Mummy got the K770i too, very pretty brown colour and it came with the free CJ7 mogu cushion (cant rmbr the exact title of the show, the upcoming alien stephen chow's show).

My current book: P.S I love you and i aim to complete the 400 pages left by valentines' day cause its hitting the theaters by then.

Here's some pictures courtesy from Na:

The week before last, we celebrated Wilfred's birthday @ MOS. Some peeks!

The Boys

The Girls.

The Boys and Girls.

Carol, me, sis n Angeline

Then, met Na, Liz, Joy, Aveline and Lena on Friday.
Loads of bitchy action, laughter and purest of the purest girl-ly fun together.
We took the neoprint after ages. And man, Neoprints is expensive now. tmd.

Monopoly!

2008-01-27T00:05:00.000+08:00

Doing my that love-hate friend i have, MISS LENA TAN.

Please do vote for Monopoly: World Edition into the Top 20, voting is only permitted once a day.
So yeps.

http://www.monopolyworldvote.com/fr_CA/world

Thanks a lot. :)

Weekend's been really interesting, exciting and only half way thru, will update soon when next week commences. :)

DO you KNOW?

2008-01-23T00:02:00.000+08:00

Adobe reader can read aloud text in your pdf file?

Check out under the view tab.

Pretty interesting fact of the day for me. :)

Welcoming the year, after 2 weeks.

2008-01-16T23:26:00.000+08:00

Its not exactly hard to comprehend how i infrequent i update my blog whenever school's out.
'Cause the very first thing i have in mind is to slack, stay away from that darn Stamford road for as far and long as i can (lappy was always a SMU-related tool, so yar, include that.), sleep to my heart's greatest content and be stress and worry free.

But i'm back now, the new year, new school bag (xh and cher got me), new year resolutions and a brand new full of shit semester commences. As much as i detest school , like i told Miss Reena (my tp lecturer) yesterday, i guess it shapes me.
Miraculously, without doubt it makes me more vocal (in terms of speaking up in front of a crowd), made me stronger and learn more about handling friendships.
Of course, deep inside me you'd still discover that bitchy shar, you've known.

So for almost a month that i missed blogging, here's some updates for what i have been doing thru out. :)

Pictures from my cousin's wedding:

It was at the grand Hyatt, but he got super unglam drunk after he sent most of the guests out. (apparently i was one of the last few that left, so i witness it all. hahaha)

The sentosa Trip i was mentioning the other time. :)

@ images of singapore. :)

Sky Ride @ luge ( i was damn scared, as you can see already)

But luge was damn fun, except for the part that it has to rain uber heavily and the stupid APNN kid that lang-ga me from behind and made my butt painful.

My xmas present from baby, which strikes another wishlist item off. yayy!

New year's Eve Shopping with miss lala, Jav and my mum
where she got her cheong sam for my sis wedding night. :)

Xmas Gift Exchange with Gris and Xh on the eve of Xmas eve. :D

Nye countdown @ KM8 (sentosa)

The reunited Ktv session with Na after veryyy long! :)

Yuping's 21st, the stripes and checks theme. :)

So yeps, meeting up all my friends that i did not get to meet during normal school time was one of the happiest thing to do during holidays. :) Not forgetting my catch up on dramas, i was done with ugly betty season one, few eps of prison break season 3 and of course my grey's and a hk drama by My There were many times i had those "i want to blog moments" but i was always not home and i cant think of any now.

I do want to try to do better this semester than last, coz it was really a great plunge in gpa.
But alrighty. i wanna continue my ugly betty so i can sleep laughing. GEE!

A really long update!

2007-12-17T15:30:00.000+08:00

okok. i know.
i;ve been nagged for the longest time since i promised 28th.
haha.
Date check: 17th dec 2007.

Holidays is nothing but pure Shiok-ness.
Sleep to my hearts content everyday, worry free.
Life's great now, seriously.

So, lets see where we left from the last time.
My 21st birthday!

tons of pictures from the PJ party, they are all on face book once again.
So heres some, self picked ones.

The dressed up ones.

Best dress: Mr Glen Goh and Miss Chua huihui

So then, my grades are out, not fantastic at all this semester but i guess i got over it.
And for the first time in my life i won a contest from writing in.
For that, i won myself a pair of tickets to Across the universe movie.

It was a weird movie but baby like it.
Whirly scenes makes you feel dopey after the show.

On my official 21st, which was after my paper that day, i went to aston's steakhouse.
Very very yummy steak place @ extremely affordable prices. :)) enjoyed myself.

Went for miss lala evening gown fitting again. That gorgeous dress looked terrific on her.
Also, i had my fill on my long missed american dramas.
Private Practice (till the latest ep), heroes season 2 & prison break (in progress). Oh yes and ugly betty. haha. shes so cute!!

Xmas's round the corner, got my xmas gifts all ready for my frens, cept for my bro in law.
Oh yes, got to meet up with friends this holidays too.

Tannia and Liz for enchanted the other day. its a great movie.
Gotta meet with athey as well.
And soon, kailing, belle, cher, Xh and Shwu ching (moove media).

Shwu ching sent me a really sweet birthday card with my present in it.
hur. V touched that she sent me that card and she did want to come for my party but she fell sick. nonetheless, sweeeeeeetttttttttt!!!

Oh yes, talking about meeting up, MISS LENA TAN! YOU owe us A BIG TREAT i tell you.
you kuku nathan first class pilot huh!!! hehe. i miss you laaa!!

My smu hoodie's here too, as you can see on my MSN picture already.
I liked it! Not regretting at all not buying the bondue one instead. hehehe.
No cognitive dissonance aye.

Went to do xmas and sis's wedding day shopping spree.
Got both my jie mei and evening gown all done. happpyyyy!
i got myself almost everyday packed with activities so i wont be bored.

Baby's mum's birthday was on the 10th and we all went out for dinner. :)
Got a fossil watch for Mr panda for xmas and he's alr wearing it now.
Went for the food tasting for miss lala's wedding as well.

Over the weekend, baby brought me to Sentosa for a night stay and we acted like tourists. haha.
He's from China (panda's origins) and i was from thailand (tan girl) haha.
God was well to us and we went to the multiple attractions from the package deal i got for the both of us.

And you have got to go to "songs of the sea", "4D magix" and "cineblast". they were really impressive! :) even the merlion had a new facelift.
and i got to use my xmas presetn from him, a fujiflim polaroid camera!!! yayy!!

So coming up next:

Meet cher and xh for xmas
Baby's fren's xmas party
Shwu ching drinking session
xmas bbq at aunty's house
Clubbing on wed
Yuping's chalet
Aunty serene's xmas celebration at her place.

Please click on this link!!

http://www.elfyourself.com/?id=1476682479

Have a merry xmas my frens! Loves*

Days to come

2007-11-19T14:16:00.000+08:00

In 4 days, i have a mini bbq
In 5 days, its my PJ party
In 6 days, exams commences.
In 8 days, i turn an official adult and in the midst of exams again.
In 9 days, i earned my official freedom.

For today till that 9th day, i promise myself to work hard.

See you till 28th Nov, loads to update. :)

2007-10-29T22:52:00.000+08:00

This was me (18^th oct 07, 0936):

I’m very exhausted.
Its like a used up 110% of my body strength to push the push cart but it only moves 0.01 meters.
Yes. Its that kind of feeling. I put in double the effort, I reap half of whatever I gave.

This is gonna be the first D in my SMU journey ain’t it?
I guess so. i kept telling myself, grades really aren't that important and whatever.
But why does it hurt so bad? its because i put in nothing but sheer efforts.

Its unfair. Why are You doing this to me?
Why is it time and again, you kept letting me fall into that extreme form of disappointment?
Yes, they are not life and death kind of important. But i am not even asking for like 80, 90, even 70?!?!#?$?@

Why can't You just grant me what You've grant me all my life?
A second best. Im always in the 2nd best alll my life so far.
Sec 1B to 4b, pri 1-2 to 6-2.
You even gave me my best in my poly days.

I work hard, You gave me all i worked for.
Why doesn't this principle apply anymore?
i work hard i get shit/borderline pay off.
WHY!!!?????

I'm beyond exhaustion can bring me to but you have to make it so hard for me.
I keep trying but You constantly take that fighting spirirt away from me.
I pay attention, i wake up early, i do homework, i sleep late to do even more work, i try and try and try.

Yea, sure. Grades aren't my life.
But the least it could do it giving me a little strength to continue moving on.
I just need some kind of assurance sometimes that i'm still doing okay.
All these while of fighting has been being reciprocated somehow.

To know i am Ok, still ok, i need to be okay to continue.
However, all these, all these ARE NOT ok.
where am i gonna gather more strength?
where can i start feeling more confident stepping in grounds of my campus?
i need that slight more than a borderline to know that i am still that same and sane.

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A miserable and painful soul after the cursed Mgmt science paper.

which btw, its me. And after the freak paper, i fell sick till today.

Yea. Perhaps i'm NOT made for figures, i hate them in fact.

But i don't have a choice. For now, really i only wished for a just pass.

Fuck the As, the Bs, I’m getting just at my wits end sometimes I don’t even know how to take another breath in school.

But thankfully, baby have been really supportive and being there when i'm lowest.
Thank you darling, you're the best. :))

Okay. We move on with life nonetheless. We go on attending life events one after another.

Let’s start off from my beloved sis getting her certified MRS LEE.

Beams*

They are all in the multiple facebook pictures and tags. I’m so lazy to upload so take a look at facebook pictures ok? hee.

I’m really happy (i shall just use the simplest word), my heart twists and whirl with sweetness when their vows are being exchanged. That’s perhaps how bliss is supposed to mean and feel, yea? Truth to be told, it’s every girl’s dream to get married and be gee bout it for the longest time isn’t it? And this time it’s my sis’s turn. Oh btw, I’m here typing my blog post again on my train ride to school.

Then, over this weekend was my eldest cousin going thru his customary marriage. I love the pictures that they took. Always liked any damn wedding pictures I see, they are all so delightful. Hee. The first time I see my parents being offered tea formally and also an almost adult me getting the real meaning of marriage. Its considerations, money, friends, relatives, alcohol, preparations, the vows they take till they leave this world, the life they will spend together here on, etc. involved. Unlike younger days where wedding dinner is plainly just eat eat eat to your heart’s content. Despite the popularity of infidelity existence, I somehow still believe in marriage – the union of 2 souls forever kind of shit.

MC or reception I really don’t quite know to which one I should be going for. But I guess I should be worrying bout my upcoming 21^st first. PJs or masquerade? This weekend I’d be doing up the invitation and sending it out. J

After speaking to a fellow year 4 project mate in my MPW (aka: OB) group, I suddenly think more positively bout my school – as in there is someone like me. I finally know that there is some one that is not out to kill me in the competition that there was someone who has gone thru the agony and still survive. I’m only hoping that I can make it thru too, even if it means barely to. I just need to pass those cursed subjects and score for my marketing subjects/PR. So long as I get to work and do well at my subjects of interests – that is 对得起自己 which matters most to me now.

Alrighty. That’s all for this week. Say hello to hell in few weeks.

AFter the break.

2007-10-16T09:59:00.000+08:00

After a week's break it does bring some relief to the almost exploding brain of mine.

A fortnight ago, i head to the Mandai Zoo with my naughty buddies. haha. The last time cher went there was 10 years i guess for me bout 5-6 years?
& Xh was less than a year ago with yas.
It was raining like mad in tampines where we decided to call some friends in that farfar away land to check the weather on their side before we board e cab in the heaviest rain.

Silly Xh got stuck with her piyo PIKO (pirated piyo piyo duck) umbrella when boarding the cab got the 3 of us laughing a good 15 mins when we head to the zoo in the cab. Isn't that expensive if you thought, its $16. hee. So we started the journey of exploring almost all the enclosures though we didnt get to complete all coz kuku cher couldn't get up in time.

Pictures are still in her digi cam and she still hasn't send us so i would have to show u some from my hp ones 1st. =)

Baby Hippo!!
The handsome white tigers that 3 of us liked the most.

Komali is e name of the elephant. =)
Polar bear's back! hee. The signs to get you ard. The heads look like they were chopped of frm the animals.

Mon- was some dvd marathon with baby, we watched closer, fracture and just follow law

Tues- Went back to school for project meeting
Wed- Mani& pedi + Dye hair
Thurs - Study a little + do hmwrk & play worms on B's PSP
Fri - Tuition + Swim and Steam with my ideal duo.
Sat- B fell sick so i went out with my parents and visited him after.
Sun- Chill-lax day with BB, Javien and Ms Lala (twisties, , vcds, ice cream, cartel)
Hence, the freak drastic increase of waistline and weight.

Seriously. Sulks.
i can so feel it when i sit down.
And PMS is coming soon enough.
ugh!

One week passes way too fast.
And now i and back to stupid finance class.
Variance -- he kept saying Vey-riance.
Hello?

I got ppl ard hooked onto Grey's! haha.
i love it so.
Its season 4 airing now and i resume that weekly dose of Grey's diligently.
i like i like i like.

If i do get to be a surgeon/ doc i would wanna be a gynae.
Welcome new borns to the world,
save both adults and children all the same. =)
Thus, thou Addison's a bitch but i still like her here and there. hee.

Some overdue pictures:

While studying the BCG matrix for marketing quiz.
Baby trying to be scary (mi li ye kind) lol.

I just wanna preview the world with my sis in a wedding gown.
Hence the blurness. haha. not the actual one actually. haha
=P

Move on. One after another.

2007-10-03T17:23:00.000+08:00

Mid term is gonna be over by saturday.
I haven been blogging coz i was really caught up with the revision all.
And the previous post constant remind me of what happened thus, the reluctance to blog.

Anyways, here's to the tags:
athey: thanks dear. For sms-ing, concerning. Lets meet up during the mid-term break okay? Study hard! And gd luck for the mid terms. :)

Mun: hee, thank you! i am alright now.

Dory: i just super needed somewhere to vent it out. heh

Zj: Thank you so much for being there. Knowing that i am that precious to you makes me feel a whole lot better. xoxo!

Miss Lala: Thank you for being on my side. You're the best. Love you!

Na: Glad to see your sms once you came back. Thank you too for letting me know you would always be in the reachable distance. Can't wait to see you again.

Anyhows, i've moved on.
A friend lesser, a heart tougher for another friend to come in.
Its hard really to just forget about everything.
The presence of him are at some corners in my room.
But i am bidding them goodbye.
The next time i see them, its gonna be an emotion-less look.

I'm in lesson now, in fact. haha.
My face is unbalanced now due to some bloody wisdom tooth decides to be wise now.
Growing out to see some light and i am kinda terrified.
Coz over lunch today, some frens shared their experience with me.
screams and shiver*
Sounds uber painful.

ok. its alr pain now.
Even a kiss on the cheek hurts. =(
Cant chew entirely on my right side.

The only positive thing i can think about if it really turns out to be surgical: i get to lose some weight coz i wont eat with a hole-ly cavity. hahaha!

Unbelievable

2007-09-26T09:02:00.000+08:00

I still can't quite digest what happened to me the entire day yesterday.
Even before i woke up.

I never thought i would blog when i open my eyes today but i know its been wanting to be published since yesterday. But i was too busy and tired over all the crap shit i was going thru.
Which i never once deserved.

I wanted to jump up and down and BITCH her back till all my inner venom is out.
But kat was right.
I shouldn't go that low like her.

YOU, of all people i trusted was a pure disappointment.
Perhaps u're being watched that you can't read here anymore.
But really, i never eva thought a girl that u barely knew can take you over like this.

I knew you for years. YEARS!
And you could just sit back and allow all of this to happen.
Is the frenship that fucking vulnerable that u can't doing anything about it?

Is a "feeble" woman worth everything we built over the years?
Have you now seen this hysterical and bloody scary sight of hers?
Or do you still think u are all out for love?
life is a torture without her? So in love with someone like this?
No matter how much i want to try to defend you, i cant think of another reason why u have to repeat what happen in the morning happen again in the afternoon. Except for you willingly be a puppet and breaking a promise you made.

How could a man be so infirm bout things?
i looked upon you as a confidant, a best friend.
I let you in the comfort zone where only pals can come into.
i often try to be there for you when u needed some one. (recall: when u wanted someone to speak to at the start of things?)
I let you even interact with my family.
And to think they were so positive about you, often singing praises about you.
Even made another friendship outta it and that u became important enough to be a distinguished guest and significant role for the upcoming occasion.

HOW CAN YOU do this NOW!
HOW? i can't comprehend.

Isn't love about trust and faith in order for it to be long term (as you wanted)?
Isn't being in a relationship, not only u can be happy but also being able to trust ur partner, being able to allow your partner to trust and be friends with people whom u trust too?

i wanted to meet her on top of everyone else.
Was i even given that chance to?
No.
Let alone getting to see or "seduce" you?

Seriously, its so fucking unfair.
Worse, you allow her to keep on saying or thinking about such things about your good friend.
What has become of you?
i never knew you like this.
Have u seriously read the things she typed?
Not only to me but also to my sis?

Have u ever thought about it?
How much it takes be irrational to do this?
Eventually, shes gonna take control of every thing in your life, can u see that already?
It pains me to lose my good friend.
It pains me even more to know that our friendship over the years is being ruined by someone whom i did not even get to meet and is low and filthy with her words and you choose to let go of me as a friend rather than that someone being hysterical, plain mad and you barely know (now).

Do u still think u understand her that well?

Can you see this side of her now?
This side that i told you to took some time to get to know.
And not skip and dive into a relationship like this?

You still want her, on top of everything else.
Want to listen to her.
Want to do everything she ask you to do.

And continuing letting her being a coward who can only hide beside a speaker phone to dictate you? Gather all the strength and breath to sms such stuff, scream over the phone, be all mighty and big to initiate things and lose it all when its time?

You think its tragic.
i think its pathetic.
If its that tragic she should be in the hospital not in your room.
Perhaps admitted to A&E and then to the psychological wards where she could be treated for excessive paranoia.
She was like this the last time isnt it?

And then she got well again rite?
Perhaps that guy left because he saw this side of her.

All these just simply shows :

i was right about her right from the start when i warned you about her (can we even mentioned that she's engaged and who's being the bitch now?)
Why do we need to be sensitive bout her nationality when she doesn't wee bit feel ashamed bout what she messaged? (in fact, being so firm when she shrieking and stop breathing when she's not and when she was the one who asked to meet)
a person can totally change under circumstances one can control ( being a man especially)
perhaps things will never be the same again for the both of us.
i will never forget this girl that you met.
How much my family and my bf dotes on me .

Miss lala: still want to thank you for everything. love ya. =D

Weekend passes by too fast.

2007-09-09T23:36:00.000+08:00

and i mean way too fast. Its gonna be the whole week of the routine sick in the stomach school regime. Too be very frank, i thought this semester would be so much better. But i guess i was wrong. I challenge myself everyday to see it in a different perspective. Yet it often brings me back to square one. Mugging the textbook yet not being able to handle the questions or even understand it really gets into you. That level of depression is really horrible. Okay. School aside. (i realised it always urges me the need to blog due to school)

Friday Kat and i went to the Diana Ser's talk remember?

She's really pleasant both audio-visual-ly! lol*
Very nicely paced talk.
Though i felt certain things that she mentioned about were pretty much branding concepts
just that i've learnt it back in TP days where we applied in for companies. (see! Marketing rocks! hahaha!)

I think she provided a really good perspective and many examples from her life stories.
i loved that Get REAL! program she hosted.
She constantly pushed herself to the limits for that program - where she says that is how much her passion has drove her to.

Motivated us to think of your future "branding" for yourself.
So if u were to ask me what my passion and my interest is at,
i'd still tell you its marketing, its making/seeing creative advertisements.

I had never once had 2nd thoughts of how much i like advertisements, branding, marketing related activities. That i definitely call it a passion.
The creativity in an advertisement takes a hell lot of brain cells away,
and its amazing how much it can affect/persuade a consumer's decision within just
30-45 seconds.

I think its super brainy and creative when you become able to transform a tacky image/brand into some almighty classy image being thought of by others. A jingle or a tagline that gets everyone talking(remembering) all ur effort u pumped in.

Thats what i wanna do, thats the job i know i will love to do everyday.
Like how diana ser is driven and passionate bout her job.

But seriously, management science and finance isn't even near what i was talking about.
So why did force us to take it even? argh! Ok. i better don't get started.
Oh yes! And saturday night was My bondue group freshies so called gathering.

And initially was just me and Janice that appeared.
Some were sick (i bet its the smu stress virus) ,
some can only come later,
the rest just vanished for no/invalid reason.
Basket. Seriously! they were so on bout it over the mass emails sent.
Luckily i wasnt the one organising.
hehe. But still i think Janice's initiative was really commendable. :)
She laughs like me i think, in terms of volume and pitch. haha.

That poor girl told me she broke down in week #2.
Really. i SO understand.
But when it was my time i hung on till bout week #7 and it was really devastating.

We had fun still, with the combination of late/ unshowered / cranky of attendees.
Baby joined us later that night.
We went brewerkz. :)

The crazy 18 year old who finishes one mug of beer in 3 seconds.

Then i finally caught Ratatouille with Miss lala, Jav and Baby.
The Rat is cute to the max pls. haha.

And today, accompanied Miss lala to her wedding gown fitting again.
Woot!
She was really beautiful!!!!
When the lady took the veil and put on her head,
it hit me really hard this time, this is really happening, my dearest sister is gonna get married. With those wedding bell songs, her whole bride aura all casted upon me.
And i think it would such lovely moment to see the real day.
So much so i tink i will cry more than my mum. haha.

Miss lala: i love you so much! So happy for your wedding. :)))

Little princess Chloe was there too. Shes so adorable! Especially with the little tummy after lunch. hurr!

Her Mummy in the background.

Help.

2007-09-07T14:25:00.000+08:00

the girl inside is crying.

Shes fighting back her tears,
only want to be happy and carefree.

Only want to be a role of a student, daughter and gf well.

God, is that too much tt she is asking for?

She forgot how she could heartily smile anymore.

Week three

2007-09-04T23:13:00.000+08:00

commenced for me this week on monday.

Instead of the usual tuesdays, and its gonna be this way thru out i guess.
My lovely MS mates are pretty nice and smart and am very thankful for that especially with their patience when teaching and guiding me along. :)

Professors are not too kind if they have forgotten to upload slides before lesson,
worse if they don't even do so.

Its really hard to look at the computer and listen to what he/she is talking about.

Way too distracting in so many ways.

Went to Comex over the weekend,
Jav got his lappy,
Went to disturb Miss lala at her booth,
baby got his Memory stick for his next gf named Miss PSP,
i've got an extra ink cartridge and after two months of long wait to get a new
pocket hard disk, i decided on Ranger all over again, with a nice shade of blood red casing
which i think its considerably unique and reliable - and for tht premium pricing i paid for.

This week is also the first week and first time in my life i gave tuition.
My tutee, a rather pretty little girl,
primary three (9years old?),
looks like a little princess from precious moments series.
The only difference?
Her hair is all over the place. haha.
Signature move: Scratch head when she doesn't know how to answer a question.
First lesson perhaps its still little distant.
But i'd do my best to help her.

Doesnt really help when u force urself to study things that doesnt interest you.
or can i even say hate?
As much as developing a diversified student, i still think certain shit they make you study is not gonna be applicable in my career next time.
Or perhaps its still early for me to say.

Next week's SMUX ta ka qia event,
its a night cycling event organised by one of the many CCAs in school.
Many asked me, "Eh, sharon, what CCA are u in?"
I'd say "NIL - and its fun."

Haha. i still do love cheerleading but if u ask me to join my school's one i rather not.
Too bimbotic , too lil guys/ proper trainer , too stuck up, just way too chui to join.
The rest, although i really wished i could be part of them .

I rather opt that time to perhaps catch up with my friends, go gym on my own or whatever.
Like yesterday, some aft school fun made me happier and lighter with the school burden i am carrying. Thank you too! You never fail to make me laugh like a mad woman when we roam the streets. Doesnt really matter if we get any shopping bags, Coz we would still have a wonderful time together. =)

I fell in love with a new drink: mogu mogu!
Its really nice! Especially in the mango flavour,
ok. i decided to be courageous and try another new flavour today.
Strawberry! And it taste like the strawberry LION toothpaste we brush our teeth with when we were younger. haha. Nonetheless, i like the nata de coco inside.
Recommended by: kat!

Come friday, both of us are going for the workshop by Diana Ser in school
Hope to benefit from it.
i guess it would be good for FT in the coming semester.

PMS period is making its entrance to me.
i suddenly feel like a little child, wanna cry at the slightest thing, feelin stressed easily.
Argh.
I'm not giving up. I just keep singing little star!

I miss xiaohui aka the evening Griselda.
it seemed years since i saw her and talk so much, pig out at her place and watch dvds or swimming together with cher and head for dinner together.
I miss those times.

Miss lala's ROM's nearing too.
So is baby's ORD.
I can't wait.

Now on my repeat playing list:

我有你真好

Below's some survey my prof asked us to do in class:
Hmm. frankly, its pretty much what i am. Hurr.
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Experiencer/Achiever

Your primary VALS type is Experiencer, and your secondary type is Achiever.

The primary VALS type represents your dominant approach to life. The secondary classification represents a particular emphasis you give to your dominant approach.

Experiencers are motivated by self-expression. As young, enthusiastic, and impulsive consumers, Experiencers quickly become enthusiastic about new possibilities but are equally quick to cool. They seek variety and excitement, savoring the new, the offbeat, and the risky. Their energy finds an outlet in exercise, sports, outdoor recreation, and social activities.

Experiencers are avid consumers and spend a comparatively high proportion of their income on fashion, entertainment, and socializing. Their purchases reflect the emphasis they place on looking good and having "cool" stuff.

Achievers

Motivated by the desire for achievement, Achievers have goal-oriented lifestyles and a deep commitment to career and family. Their social lives reflect this focus and are structured around family, their place of worship, and work. Achievers live conventional lives, are politically conservative, and respect authority and the status quo. They value consensus, predictability, and stability over risk, intimacy, and self-discovery.

With many wants and needs, Achievers are active in the consumer marketplace. Image is important to Achievers; they favor established, prestige products and services that demonstrate success to their peers. Because of their busy lives, they are often interested in a variety of time-saving devices.

Finance class.

2007-08-28T10:32:00.000+08:00

Woot.

I'm in the middle of finance class.
Oh god.

Look @ my screen!

Okay.
i know a bit here and there about the things he is saying but really i have no interested i will just get the textbook and go home to read or smth. haha.
Oh wells.

Long weekends are great.
haha.
i've got a lot of movies i wanna watch!

Caught hairspray yesterday, wasnt expecting too much.
Its a 3.5 popcorn kinda show.
Maybe not so my type.

Rented Bourne Identity and Supremacy (should be finishing by tonight or tmrw)

Grand dad's birthday todae.
Heading out to eat. =)
And my appointment with the specialist too.
Guess everything should be okay. (cross fingers*)

More to watch:

881
Bourne Ultimatum
Evan Almighty
Ratatouille
License to wed
THe invasion ( saw the trailer ytd - seems exciting!)

My first week in school.

2007-08-23T14:21:00.000+08:00

I'm done with the lessons for this week.
I don't quite know if i should be happy or not.

Cause today's lesson, half way thru i was kinda lost.
The other day's finance lesson as well.
I'm kinda worried and scared.
As much as i try to reassure myself its okay.

Deep down somehow there's a voice sayin "nope. you die. stupid girl. "
I've been having night mares.
So in the day, you're worried and at night u get frightened over something untrue.
Its kinda tiring.

At times, i lie on my bed alone .
Thinking what would it be like if i'm like friends who just stopped schooling
or if i headed else where to study.
Okay, i know its super outta point and an "escape-ist" thinking.
I can't seem to think of another way to not think of school stuffs.

But i will try my best.
Issit just mere too much worrying or?
arrr. Don't wanna think about it anymore.
And i can't stand the continuous emailers of all the CCAs.
Argh. Non stop to the max!

I'm playing OST of jay chou's movie - Secret.
情人的眼泪 - a classic.
i kinda like.

Off to the gym. =D

Two weeks ago.

2007-08-21T16:14:00.000+08:00

I was still in the summer holidays.

Oh wells.
Here i am.
i'm back to SCHOOL today.

A great timetable.
That starts my week off on a tuesday and ends on a thurs.
So in other words, i'm pretty much a happy girl.
Then again, my 21st would be in campus again having exams.
Oh wells. But having to be able to have long weekends is nonetheless a joyful thing.

Was contemplating whether i should be taking 5 Mods this sem.
But seriously, i don wanna be too stressed out.
I've also calculated and planned for the rest of my journey in SMU.
Guess i prolly would end by the end of year 4 sem 1.

So when the next summer comes, i wont be having it so easy.
alrighty.

Here Goes,
updates for the two weeks. =)

National day 2007

Miss lala and her salad made. =)

An attempt to make our faces smaller.

There is cycling!

Kite flying and....

FOOD! heh. I was sandwich maker.
And we bumped into zhu tou and gang @ the same place. =)

The week after was:

Shopping with Ping. (shopping madness!) and i fulfill one more wishlist. =D

And i met her on the train back!

The day after we went sentosa. =D

Liz. Na. Shar.
Had fun! =)

Then,

Flea market with my family, baby and jav's fam too. =D

Courtesy frm Miss lala:

A (very) short story ..

Directed by : Ms Lala

Starring:
Leading Actress - Ms "I like my head wrapped"
Leading Actor - Mr Bully

Supporting Actress : Ms Palm Tree
Supporting Actor: Mr HDB Flat

wahaha! just lai! =D

I have also completed xing niang 18 years old (korean drama) and One litre of tears (japanese serial).

One Litre of tears made me cried literally to that amount.
Its a 11 Episode drama that is based on true story, a girl who was diagnosed with an incurable disease - Spinocerebellar Degeneration. Her diary is being published into books and into this serial. u can catch it on www.crunchyroll.com. It does make you realise how fortunate and lucky we are just right now. She died in 1988. And till today, there is no cure for this cruel disease that takes away the ability to move and speak and yet be mentally aware of everything else.

Theres still one more HK show pending on my table from Na, but i guess i wont start it as yet.
i'm afraid i get hooked and i can't focus on school. But i will. =D

oh yes. there is also a lovely day that baby and i decided to just go to cheesecake cafe to indulge! N super huge rain just befall us causing me to shiver but Hot chocolate does its thingamajig.

Rum & Raisin, Strawberry Oreo Cheesecake.

Okay! My fave 5pm variety's starting. So glad i can get to watch them again! woot!

Part time: Hope everything is gonna be fine. Don't be stress okay? i believe everything's gonna fall all in place. =)

Baby: U're the best thing that ever happened in summer holidays. Thank you for coming into my life. =) love you!

i'm back!

2007-08-06T16:40:00.000+08:00

After many many events over the week.
I finally get some time on my own at home.

BLISS!

I get to sleep like woooo~!
haha.
Ok. let me bring you thru my week!

31st Jul07 - Finally got my pay check from dynamic asia

1st Aug 07

-Pre camp dinner @ suntec with my freshie group

- Spotted Liz and Na.

- Watched Knocked up with part time

- Donut Factory

- Shopping with part time @ vivo. (got good deals!)

- part time gave me the bet we made - my wishlist one down! yay! thanks PT!

2nd Aug 07

- Stay home to complete Dicey Business (Great show!)

- Cher's bdae celebration @ spaghetties and party world

- Head to school to camp with the rest of the facis.

- baby's graduation from course.

3rd - 5th Aug 07 - Bondue (business) orientation camp.
had a great time there. and shit load of photos. but i'm done uploading them.
Take a look:

Album 1

Album 2

Album 3

5th aug 07 - Celebrated Na's birthday! (hope u'd like ur present i made. =) )
Loves*

4 and a half days more.

2007-07-25T13:08:00.000+08:00

I'm counting down to the days i'm left in the company.

i guess i wont be able to find another job - with love and hate.

Hate:
- Repeat myself so much over the phone
- Talking to ah thiong or almost non-english speaking ppl on the phone
- Some monkeys/ ah bengs/ ah lians running/cursing up and down (Note: do not remind me of the last post i written)
- Limited Lunch choices and having to eat in.
- Routine lifestyle / Desk bound
- Having to cover my arse with everything i do
- Facing the damn air con that breaks down so often (thankfully it isnt today, and hopefully till next tues. =D)

Love:
- I can get to use my lappy so much!
- Watch shows during lunch in front of my lil screen
- Non peak periods = No calls (heh heh!)
- It being in central = easy to meet frens in town / east
- Get to see miss lala more often
- I've got the whole office to myself from bout 11 - 2pm. (ok, i admit sometimes it gets pretty lonely)
- Online shopping (hmm . bit unhealthy, i know)
- I get to listen to the radio and get updated with the latest songs. =)
- I get rides on Jav's xiao bai to come to wrk on alt days. [thank you, Jie fu (bro - in - law)!]

ok, so in total there's two more love over hate.
So i should be more thankful then whiny.

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Updates over the weekend:

Went to Urban pulse with baby - A ticket we bought months ago before the production started. Oh. i was expecting quite a bit but i weren't too disappointed. See Below for pics! :))
Met up with Cher and Dan to relive old school days, we went arcade (ya, u din read wrongly.) and cosy bay for some bites and beer.
Accompanied Miss lala to her wedding dress fitting! (See below*)
Went east coast with baby's family for dinner & "released" some electrons.
i started coughing over no apparent reason. wth, seriously.
I'm getting hooked on dicey business. haha.
I miss my American serials. (Upcoming Pirate: private practice - new spin off from grey's )

From urban pulse:

Super Thin Girls that swing back & forth like cloths.

Literally urban as that background!

The ACS boys (extreme right) are so cute when they shake butts all in their performance. lol.

After the arcade, we saw Thieves!

and we joined in!

Miss lala's fitting:

Her gown is gonna be this kinda cut. nice hor!
Behind long long ribbon and Long long dress to basement one kind.
haha!

Miss lala: u pick the right final one - both dress and husband. :)

Gonna send Miss monkey off back to auzzie todae. one month's too short for us to have more fun! We'd See you after your graduation okay? =)

Irritants on board.

2007-07-21T10:24:00.000+08:00

I'm so mother pissed and tired now.
And i seriously need an outlet for all the whining and vengeance.
I swear i feel like slapping her out loud. ( i think its her, either that or the rest are liars and cowards wouldnt wont even own up for a cup of tea)
Farking idiots left their cups and cans for who to clear ar?!
Think i'm a cleaner or smth?

Sorry, if i can say this again.
I'm born a manager.
Don't you reading the farking sign there?

It says:
YOUR MOTHER DOESN'T WORK HERE.
CLEAR UP YOUR MESS.

Bloody hell and i have to clear up your bloody breakfast tea?!?!
Hello? Your face alr irritate me every single day.
And excuse me could you pls stop wearing those this fashion-ish tshirts?
Fugly.
Orh. perhaps it goes with your face.
Dirt Cheap and irritating.

And if i just leave it there.
Its the bloody weekend, mondae will be welcomed with ants all over.
Can't u even use your freak pea brain to think?
And who is gonna clean it up then?
Mok mok Ghost issit?

argh!
In the end, still i cleared it.

My emptied addiction.

2007-07-20T15:30:00.000+08:00

At the end of the day, when it comes down to it, all we really want is to be close to somebody. So this thing, where we all keep our distance and pretend not to care about each other, is usually a load of bull. So we pick and choose who we want to remain close to, and once we've chosen those people, we tend to stick close by. No matter how much we hurt them, the people that are still with you at the end of the day - those are the ones worth keeping. And sure, sometimes close can be too close. But sometimes, that invasion of personal space, it can be exactly what you need.
-Dr. Meredith Grey

Made a new collage. :)

Baby: Glad you made thru the exam.

Keep up the good work k?

See you tmrw.

Week-daze.

2007-07-18T13:33:00.000+08:00

Bought this Tee for Baby! hehe. Cute ay?

I got one myself another design but tis the kids series. hehe.

We went to The arena on Saturday night.
The ang moh there's tommy's dad's company's intern.
Has loads of beginners luck for those drinking games.
Larrisa's back from auzzie like Lena but heading back soon too.
Not too bad for the music (bands).
Too bad it isnt exactly a club coz i really wanted to dance more than just drinking.
And they charge one glass of green tea for $12 and $30 for 2 plates of chic wings!.
i can't drink coz i was still on medication. =(
Not too fun either coz baby got tipsy in the end and occupy like 85% of my bed.
i was threatened to be toss over my bed the whole night.

Anyways done with the taiwan serial, corner with love
which kinda explains my nick on MSN,
but its applicable tt's why. hur.
Anyways, Here's evil twins and their uniform caught in the act. haha .
Miss lala: get well soon ok? hugs*

i'm hoping my dresses are coming over today!
Been waiting for like one month or so?
sorry i think its two coz tht kuku din get my orders the last time round.
N anyways, tmrw is supposed to be my exclusive date and i think its kinda clashing with bondue meeting.
Shits! my date if u are reading this, pls reschedule or call me k?

i went back to the chinese physician ytd,
he told me i have a lot of "electricity" in me. haha.
so i guess this sundae i will have to release them! hur.
2 more days of medicine i think i should be done by then. :)

and my current new show its from HK, courtesy of Na, Dicey Business. hee.

i've just completed I'm a cyborg but that's ok. its like a one popcorn show. (2 thumb down)
Over the weekend, i caught i am sam, that's a 4.5 popcorn show. (made me cry like madness) but really its a gd show u guys shld go rent/watch.

I found the dress that i am gonna wear for my sis's wedding. TADA! Nice? i hope it fits well when it arrives. i'm kinda addicted to online shopping and perhaps i should stop. shan't check on the updates so frequently. hehe.

i Still need champagne dress so if u guys see it pls let me know. :)

mobile pictures.

2007-07-12T14:06:00.000+08:00

When i'm all blue and semi eeyore. haha!

Miss Gladys Quek aka chicken little / Lao shi. lol

She's so adorable! Baby's niece.

Havaianas Party @ Bondue mock camp. Most worn slippers in SMU.

The Xiao long bao, i drank. woot!
But i still like crystal jade's best.

Guess who?

He grown up now and i took him away! lol

Those bunnies turn so big alr!

My next movie. :)

A Deficiency.

2007-07-10T12:46:00.000+08:00

I'm ill again?
Can u believe it?
Its just 2 weeks interval each time.
Its making me crazy,
I can't stand keep falling ill all the time.

With proper diet, sleep and exercise, i still get sick.
Wth?!?!
i'm so upset with the organs inside me.

I went to the doctor earlier.
He said i had some thing some thing deficiency.
which also means mild absorption rate in my body.
I cant really absorb anything from the food i am eating.
If he were to refer me for a medical checkup the western doctors can't really do anything.
Advised me to head to a chinese physician.

And asked me to take this multi vitamin pill for 2 weeks to see
if it improves if not i will have to go back for a blood screening test.
i got a shock of when i saw blood clots in my mucus this morning
when i was blowing my nose..

And i was running fever again this aftnoon when i head to the doc.
Always fever, always!!!!!!!!
i'm so irritated. :(

Perhaps i will head to the physician which baby says its good.
Saturday, had mock camp in school.
And i went to old changi hospital for the 1st time.
Scare the shit outta me.
Its really spooky.
But the stations were pretty good.
Thank God, Facis don't have to go in those stations with the freshies.
Or i will go hide in the so called, hum ji ( timid in hokkien) chalet. lol
i Do look forward for the camp.
Cause i enjoyed mine last year.
When we were being introduced the signature smu star jump. :)

Over sunday, we sent dory off to auzzie and watched 3 movies!

200 pounds - 4 popcorns ( i cried like shit, though i'm watching it e 2nd time)
Xmen (the last stand) - 4 popcorns (i always like these superheroes)
The island - 4 popcorns (great plot with good looking main leads)

BOSS starts again, i'm almost done with the modules i'm taking.
So far, i'm gonna only bid with kat.
Athey: if u are reading this, pls do sms me soon.

So far, my timetable:

Tuesday

Course Name	Section	Vacancy	Term Session	Location	Start/End Time	eDollars
FNCE101 - Finance	G7	40	1	LKCSB Seminar Rm 3-4 (Rm 3007)	830 - 1145

Wednesday

Course Name	Section	Vacancy	Term Session	Location	Start/End Time	eDollars
OBHR101 - Management of People at Work	G7	40	1	LKCSB Seminar Rm 2-5 (Rm 2012) [formerly SR 2-3]	830 - 1145

Thursday

Course Name	Section	Vacancy	Term Session	Location	Start/End Time	eDollars
OPIM101 - Management Science	G8	40	1	LKCSB Seminar Rm 3-1 (Rm 3001)	830 - 1145

Friday

Course Name	Section	Vacancy	Term Session	Location	Start/End Time	eDollars
MKTG101 - Marketing	G11	40	1	LKCSB Class Rm 3.4 (Rm 3020)	830 - 1145

*note: hehe. no showing of my bids. so u kukus don try to outbid me ar! haha.

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Sometimes i wonder, why issit some friends just have to come
to grow so close to you. And yet be the one who leaves you first?

Issit just me? Or issit them? i always meet these ppl.
And they often make me tear and miss them.
But i bet they sure do have more things in their mind apart from me.

Perhaps, i should just count the rest of my blessings - those that stay with me.

Mdm Chua.

2007-07-03T15:50:00.000+08:00

The 2nd time in my life.
i hope i wont be attending anymore this year.
I was overwhelmed with Shock.
While the rest, overwhelmed with grief, tears and pain.
Though i've only seen her twice.
But it was enough to make me cry too.

You will live on forever - Yes. In every one hearts.

Almost there.

2007-06-25T12:29:00.000+08:00

One more month to less routine lifestyle.
Some how i am super scared when school is gonna resume.
thinking of it makes you sick in the stomach.

okies.
Anyways, i love weekends.
My only one and a half dae to relax and chill pill. lol

Saturday was baby's dad's 60th.
We had lunch at Turf city and durian cake from angie's.

Dearest granny who loves them a lot.

And was bunz bdae celebration ytd.
This sweetie teared with joy seeing the cake.
She was forced to wear PJ's and take tht hello kitty bag in vivo. lol.

Happy 22nd bunz! =)

And miss monkey from auzzie is back. Hurray!
Meeting her and the girls in quite a bit. Can't wait. =)
hur!
Watched apocalypto --- 4 popcorns pls. (nice show!)

Also, some shopping on sundae.
i got myself a new black flats @ $20 and a Nike sports bra (strikes wishlist).
Hur. i promised to not spend excessively.
Its GSS now. but really its necessity not wants. hee.
Wardrobe fairy in action again, sundae checked bout $194 for my part time elf.
lol. (ahem* enlarged text!)

Hunting for a champagne colour dress for miss lala's wedding. hmmm.

But this is way too exp. $219. Punching heart action*

A random shot at ECP last night while i was going home.

The oasis (cosy bay). One of Sgp's best chill place.

ANd media corp fave shooting place (below) - the drama break up place. Hur.

Say goodbye.

2007-06-21T15:41:00.000+08:00

This is one proud local production i must say.
I loved it.
Its made to a tribute to Mr Wayne "Thunder" Seah, i've read and heard about.

Apparently i'm not too sure how he died but it was in his slp so i guess its pretty peaceful and painless. He was pretty passionate bout local music and all. Was writing this piece of music before he passed on. But the band (astroninja all-star) had completed it instead, on behalf.

Levan (verse) :
When you walked away
Nothing Left to say
Never thought the end would be so near
So runaway and hide
The pain you feel inside
Who ever thought the price would be so dear? And you say!

Inch (pre chorus):
Baby, please believe me
Oh please believe me,
When I say that I'll see you again
But now you have to go and I want you to know
This is goodbye, this is goodbye

Chorus (everyone):
Goodbye, goodbye, goodbye, fare thee well
Say goodbye

Zaki (verse):
Everyone you met
All the ones you had
Will never be the same without you here

Don (verse):
So f*ck all the cliches!
We'll say them anyway
There'll never be a day we won't believe And you say!

Pre-chorus Chorus

Dong: (guitar solo)

May (bridge):
Don't let the words you say slip away
Don't let the words you say fade away

Chorus (everyone)

Levan (outtro)

Its pretty sad reading the lyrics.
Support local bands! =)
I mean those better sounding ones. haha.
i'm watching super size me! =)

Fury!

2007-06-20T16:07:00.000+08:00

I'm so mother F*@#king pissed now.
The dresses i ordered the other dae over a spree is currently
ALL not ordered.
You have not idea how pissed i am.
When i'm the only one in the list that hasn't got all her items.

I transferred the money and everything else as needed too.
And u said sorry becoz i miss out ur payment and order late?
Wtf excuse is that?
I transferred you long ago.
and you said i din and then aft tht you said i did adn you received.

And you want me to wait all over.
I ~~don't~~ mind waiting but don't you think you deserved so much to be scolded?
U fucking don check ur acct.
Now everyone else that ordered the same dress is gonna get it one month earlier.
And i have to wait all over again for ur cursed spree to take place where you might want to extend it?

i'm so angry now i can bite off some one's arm.
i'm sulking so badly at wrk now my chin is touching to ground level.
My office is at level 2.
Don come telling me sorry and its ok.
ITS NOT.
i'm so gonna negative feedback pls.
YOU deserve every single thing i am about to write.
Mother screw up.
You totally spoilt my day i swear.

N others may sae nothing to be pissed about,
Wait till ur order is gonna get this.
Den i'd tell you the same, then tell me how you are going to sulk and jump.

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To U (back):

i dunno where untrue stories were from,Coz there wasnt any when i looked back into 3 sent messages. I wont have reacted that way if it wasnt triggered.
Its the tone tht made it sound like a demand. That was the only "story" there.
Even the replies i got were all exclamation marks. I din think any lesser of you.
i was upset with the way you put ur msg across. Perhaps i was sensitive. But why was it the other felt the same without me sayin anything. Like i said drop it. i love you and i don wan this to eat into us any further.
Swallon eyes the next morning was due to the same reaction i had tht you did too.

*shar's blog*